I’ve just woken up and I CAN’T actually believe i wrote that blog last night. I feel a bit embarrassed, a little bit exposed (lol) and well i’m going to try and hide my shame with a bit of ‘humour’ this morning and pictures of me in barnyard bubble baths. It’s the only way forward. (Haaha..) Ugh!! I just spilt my tea on my laptop. Noooooo… ( i feel a ‘hissy fit’ coming on.)
I did actually feel that way last night, hence why i’m glad i blogged it as it was true, raw, and helps people (including myself) realize that it’s okay to feel that way at times. Know that i am OKAY now, (lol) and back to my merry self…it was just a moment of pathetic self pity & now that i’ve slept on it, i’m fine. I am amazed by the amount of messages i got from people all over the world. Lots of you felt the same that evening, which upset me, ( an American woman who was a teacher, a teenage girl in Japan, a 28yr old guy in Egypt, a successful guy who plays football) but made me realize i was normal. Then there were the ones that offered your support. The ‘do gooders.’ And i love you for it!! Thankyou. I’m all for cheering up and doing good. And it reminded me to share strength and not weakness. I guess my blog works because someone, somewhere feels exactly the same at that precise moment.
My actual best message i recieved this morning and along with some amazing ‘praise’ (which i do enjoy lol) on how i’ve inspired them and done well in life ‘ simply by living,’ was one sentence of it…which read: ‘suck up the part time bull shit!’ (Hahahaha.) I LOVED it! And it actually made me ‘snap’ out of my case of ‘da blues.’ I like people who actually have the balls to tell me what they really think. I find it very attractive. Plus, it just made me realize how lucky i am, and how stupid i was being. No-one likes a moody bastard. It’s boring. I’m happy again. I was just having a moment. I’m actually doing well in life, and having fun. I keep forgetting that & mainly because i’m 99% retarded…(which might i add is 1% GOOD.) A boy once said that to me in LA when i told him i couldn’t possibly date him because i was 99% ‘tard.’ (‘..that’s 1% good baby!’) lol.
Oh and i also got a few random messages from Manchurians last night, (you’re forgetting that i can see where my messages are coming from) who have decided that they’re going to ask me or well TELL me about my love life…which i’m filing under odd & childish? It’s making me think that there’s a lot going on, that i don’t really know about, but EVERYBODY else seems to. Which is quite bad form really & really BAD KARMA!!! But ‘Ah well.’ ( I shake my head in disappointment and maybe roll my eyes a little.) I don’t have time to waste on well constructed ‘bullshit.’ If you are actually friends with this person, then just know you’re successfully making him look like a tit.
I have a great job coming up soon, that i can’t wait to tell you all about. I’m shopping today and well i’m smearing my ‘Glamour Puss- joy joy’ all over this merry world. (And maybe coughing on people a little bit.) It’s raining. What a surprise. Gonna go call LA! Can you believe that it’s flipping August already!!!!! I can’t believe how atrocious my phone bill is!!!
Kissy Kissy x