I’ve had a birthday. I’ve waved the glittery flag of happiness. I’ve so far survived 2018, which was certainly a new chapter…and even though i’ll certainly have to go on a beautiful fad diet, after filling my love humps with tequila, wine and any ale that would have me… I’m doing okay. I’m a year older. Probably not wiser. But that doesn’t really bother me. I’m quite the ‘together’ chick anyway, aside from when it comes to my love life. I’m really excited for Christmas. I’m loving being a Mama. And I have so much ahead of me, as I confidentially try and sail into 2019.
This year was the first year, i decided to do nothing but home & family fur my birthday. It was bliss. It was everything I wanted, after such a pushy year of ‘da hustle.’ I tried my best. I won. I lost. I loved. I enjoyed. I drank too much. I laughed. I cried. I did it all.
I’m ever so grateful for every single venue who had asked me to come play ‘birthday’ with them/ for them and I can’t wait to see you in the New Year. But I just needed me time, family time, time with the kids…and to regroup. Not because I felt lost. But because I felt happy. I wanted to celebrate quietly and without it being a ‘hoo haa’ for a little paycheck. I spent my Year influencing all sorts, so it meant so much to me to just put on my comfies and relax!
I hope you all have the wildest Mad Friday. I’m DEFINITELY chilling because I can’t be arsed with being felt up by drunks, who’ve been ‘bottled’ or punched up, in giant taxi queues. Lol Yet please do, have the most glorious time.
My birthday month is when I feel at my most ‘ooh laa.’ I hope you do too, it’s a time where you should just enjoy being YOU and not give a ‘narnas’ about what anyone thinks or says about you. Their doing THEIR life. You embrace your version of living and loving.
I’m feeling strong right now, because I’m calm. I’m focussed. I’m chilled. I’m like a rock…with tits. Lol
Push me and YOU’LL fall down. But then i’ll Smile and help you back up. I’m in a good place! I just feel filled with love and I want it share it… I have my friends & family…But I certainly don’t have anyone to kiss under the mistletoe.
Every year, I kind of achieve everything i want. Or I at least take those little essential steps forward. I tinker. I take confident baby steps. I become braver. I’m always filled with that ‘win/lose’ courage aren’t I! I learn…always! That’s for suuuuure!
But OH my GOD!!
Each year I graduate, I never ever manage to find the man OF MY DREAMS!!!
I’m still all single, excited and doughy eyed!
I just don’t get it? Why am I so unlucky in love? Especially when I seem to have all this attention! And I’ve heard all year… from guys who express their actual *terror* of daring to even ask me out. But I find that weird?
It actually makes me feel like no one really fancies me, when I’m apparently ‘one of the most fanciable’ girls?
AND even the guys that did ask me out on dates, or who I chatted to…didn’t follow through…They just left it, like ‘blah.’ Haha!!
What is flipping wrong with me!?! Haha!
So right now, I’m doing me and voting for being happy, sexy, sassy and Wunnaful! I’m a hopeless romantic. I love, love. But I have faith that it’ll find me.
If I’m forever single, I’m forever single. If I’m not…then lucky me.
Whatever will be, will be! I’ll just through it up to the stars & see what magic happens!
Again, I’m filled with excitement and I SO grateful for all your support so far! You’ve made me feel like the luckiest girl alive!
I hope you all have the merriest Christmas. I love you. I love you a lot more than you even realise. To everyone that’s found their way here, may your beautiful world be blessed with shimmies, life and success.
Thank you so much for everything!
Happy Dec 21st!
I really need a rum now…