And just when you think everything’s turning a bit shitty, ‘The Gods’ throw you a bone and just like that you’re back to normal and life goes straight back to magical.
I feel like the luckiest tinker in the world.
Last night, I was so stressed. I was SO stressed, that I was stressing myself out. I don’t like a pity party. I throw them. But I don’t like them. I look at ‘dwellers’ in a bizarrely weak light. I’m not harsh with them, because everyone is different. I simply leave them to it.
My friends will also tell you that I’m rubbish at sympathy when other’s are throwing a pity party , because no matter what they’re going through, I’ve either been through it myself at some point, a million times over and know that all ends up alright in the end…Well depending on the experience and strength of the human. And I can see someone’s strength in a second.
Yet, after a moment of feeling sorry for myself, I kinda just snapped out of it and realized how lucky I was. Then I figured that being stressed, was a complete waste of my time, (nothing is worse than wasted time.) So I got over myself, got over the dramatics, and the words of Jaden Smith, I..
‘Looked at the case and closed it.’
My phone rang this morning (after I slept on life and let the world take a turn) and the other end of my line said,
Agent: ‘I read ya blog. I have news. Good news! So, let’s get you back working and excited.’
I’ve had a fun Summer. A Summer that I needed to have. I don’t know why I had to have it? Yet, i’m really glad I did, because I got to enjoy it normally and simply just LIVE. I might have felt a little lost through it in parts. Yet, I’m SO glad, that I got to feel all that I did. I’m the luckiest girl in the world.
But in one second straight, I grew ten feet tall and burst into confetti with excitement.
I guess, the good thing about my life, is it’s never EVER easy and because it’s hardly that easy, i’ve grown and developed super fast. On occasion it’s fueled by cocktails, yet once work kicks in (and i’ve been on down time due to slow scheduling, book writing and delays)...I become ALIVE again and I’m simply at my strongest, when a schedule is put into place and the schedule involves everything I love, everything I know, everything new and everything that makes me happy.
I’m at my happiest right now and when that happens, I radiate a *glow,* an energy.
KatyP: ‘Look at you. You look so happy now, to be getting out of your down time.’
She said it with a smirk, that made me beam, because it was a smirk where in which no words were needed.
Those moments are magical.
If anyone can embrace a new chapter or a bit of the old ‘showbiz,’ it’s me. I couldn’t be more excited to have everything go back to normal. (Well my version of normal anyhow.) By nature, I’m a ‘toughy’ aren’t I? Yet, everything now is suddenly back in place and I can way *b’bye* to a rowdy, Peroni dripped Summer and just get on with Girl bossing it again. Well, just get on with my version of LIFE again. When it comes to life, I kinda learn it along the way. I never matters how old or young you are? How much experience you’ve had…makes you grown.
It’s weird how a phone call can simply change everything.
I had an inbox this morning from the this guy I dated when I was 18. I actually left him for LA and married another human, so he would have no reason to really be lovely to be a few decades on.
He’s actually done well for himself. I always say that i’m like some kind of juicy mojo, as all the guys that I’ve dated (aside from the lazy ones) have ended up doing really well for themselves, off their own back. I’m gonna go with it’s because i’m inspirational. They wouldn’t. Lol. Yet, if not, at least I gave them a point to prove.
I ignored the message, because it’s what I always do and let’s face it, I don’t want to be with him, do I.
Yet, he came at me with a..
‘You can come over to mine, the kids can play in the pool, whilst you tell me how shit your life is without me.’
I admire the confidence. Yet honey, my life isn’t too shabby. 😉 Lol.
I don’t really have that much more to say, other than….
Here we go…
Wunna Land, IS BACK.
You’re always one decision away from a new version of Life.