This time yesterday morning I found myself driving to meet someone, that I technically shouldn’t have been meeting, but sometimes life, just guides you down a path, where possible flames, fire & fun, are there for the taking.
Good times, this way!
These days, when it comes to life, i’m a ‘play it safe,‘ but MY WAY, kinda gal. I’m concentrating on work and family. But as we know, my version of safe is never EVER ‘Vanilla.’ Like ‘The Gent’ that I went on the Manchester Airport date with, a month ago…had said….
‘You’re a dangerous girl. Guys love a dangerous girl.’
I guess, the glint in my little Asian eyes, will always give that away.
The real truth is, that I’m not very ‘dangerous’ at all. I’m actually just a bit foolish. Haha. I’m made up of so many ‘bits & pieces,’ that it would take a real genius, or the most patient male in the Universe, to actually begin to KNOW, how to figure me out.
(I met a guy whilst waiting at the bar yesterday, who was Autistic. He made me beam, because he was so smart, so quick and I could see his mind working, as it turned. He told me I was ‘beautiful‘ and I appreciated the love, because it was so real, raw and delivered with a bold quirkiness.)
Anyway, back to the story….
I’d been up working since five o clock in the morning. I did a shoot, around six o clock. A school run occurred in between. Yet, by 10am, my shoot was done.
I got in my car and I drove to meet a friend.
Best morning ever really. So much fun. I guess life just fancied a *TWIST* and that’s how I found myself sat there, smiling. A ‘Twist’ is good, because you always learn something from it. And through MY life…I’ve learnt A LOT. I see a ‘twist’ coming for me, before it even begins to tighten.
Some call it SKILLZ. 😉
I’ve known this person a while, but I’ve never got to hang out with them really. So it was great to just chatter, in a corner…away from drama, or stress. I need those moments. I’m needing them more and more.
It’s weird because it’s like my little Wunna boat has caught a decent wind now and gosh, we’re beginning to sail…
GLITTER SHOWERS EVERYWHERE.
‘I can’t stop looking at you.’
‘Aww! So sweet! Haha. What are you even looking at?’
‘You should probably do that top button up.’
‘I like it undone.’
‘Ah! You wore a skirt.’
‘Yeah. It’s warmer than I thought today, so I figured i’d give you that! Haha.’
‘You look ******* stunning…’
‘I look scrubbly. I’ve been on a shoot all morning.’
Banter, wine and chitter chatter. Sometimes, that’s all you need. It keeps your sane. It’s keeps you fresh. It keeps you excited about life, doesn’t it? And when you’re excited, you feel like you can conquer the world, in a day!
Sometimes, you can. Sometimes, you can’t. All that matters is how you FEEEEL.
(I’m finding it so hard to write this blog right now, because I’m in the warmest room ever, with a Mulled Wine headache. I guzzled mulled wine, like I was a bouji pirate last night, at Ackworth Garden Centre, by baubles. It was their Big Christmas reveal, yesterday evening. I had the most beautiful time. It was literally magical. Christmas is my favourite time of year. I’m a December born baby, incase you didn’t know.)
Anyway, he was sweet, humble and sexy. It was good to just sit and chatter, without a care in the world. Plus, he’s going to be working alongside Wunna Land soon, so it’s good for him to get to know me better, without any ‘censors.’ 🙂
‘It’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be hard. But i’ll do it.’
He kept starting a sentence, pausing…not saying anything at all, as his mind looked like it was racing….and then finishing his sentence, with a simple ‘yeah.’
‘You didn’t say anything…’
‘I do that a lot..’
Haha. And you lot think i’m crackers!!
Then as the clock struck 1pm, he walked me to my car and we just got on with our own little versions of life…
If I could describe the walk,i’d say it was..
It was a ‘Danger Walk.’
(But I least I did it in gold glitter kitten heels.)
The rest of the time I spent with Ruby and Junior, before we headed to Ackworth Garden Centre, to shimmie in Christmas. The kids love it there. They’ve literally grown up, in that Garden Centre. Lol. But last night was beautiful. It was filled with happiness. It was filled with famillies, close friends and great memories.
I love family. It’s so important to me. Ruby & Junior are so important to me. We’re this little threesome and we’ve been through such a tough time and there are moments, like with all families, where in which, we still do.
Yet 90 percent of the time, we’re WONDERFUL!
I have much more balance right now and hopefully (with everything crossed) something tells me, that we have the most magical future ahead of us.
I’m just leaving life to fate…and well…writing my diary as I go along.
ps/ I don’t think being 37 and Single is gonna be too difficult after all.? Haha. Right now, guys seem to be offering themselves over to Wunna Land, with a hop, skip and a…willy.(I’m keeping myself out of trouble though.)