Today I’m talking Love…

It’s Summer right! Let’s have some fun now. We’ve sat in rain. We’ve worked hard all year. We’ve hustled. We’ve loved, we’ve laughed, we’ve cried. Some of us have fallen in love. Some of us and have had our merry hearts broken. Some of us have made our dreams come true and some of us just forgot to try.

Clean slate it!

People get so stressed out about shit that doesn’t matter. Don’t get stressed out about shit that doesn’t matter. One life to live, with nothing to lose. LIVE IT. I’m watching the whinners have a moan about life and the winners just get on with it. Wunna Land is a ‘no sulking’ zone. So if you’re feeling down…cheer up. If you’ve fallen down…get back up. If you’ve got a bikini, throw it on. If your Prosecco glass is empty.. pour a fresh bubbly one, as see it as half full.

The sun’s out now! Let’s have some fun! Fuck it! It’s Sunday!

So far, i’ve actually had a chilled one. I’ve worked hard all week and darted here there and everywhere. My first day into my days off, are always about family time and chill. It’s like the big old recoup after a jolly, but tough game. Plus, I treasure the time that I have with Ruby and Junior, as there’s just me (yes, I have a lot of help, that I appreciate greatly.) But I have to work quite madly in order to provide and ‘Boss it’ for them. (I haven’t been lucky enough in love to hold onto a proper ‘this is mummy…this is daddy…and we’re together forever’ lifestyle…YET. What? I’m hopeful. 🙂 ) Secondly…I have to share them with their Daddies (who I get along with quite wonderfully) and that alone is healthy for them, because they’re immersed in love continuously…However it makes me treasure my time with them. I love being a Mum.

We shopped, we sang, we danced, we face painted, we kicked balls in parks, we had mini manicures, we did family Wunna Lunch at Ego in Ackworth and I winked it all off with cocktails, an ‘at home’ dance off and then treated myself to an early night.

Ponte Races happened! Thousands of people went. I definitely didn’t, as it looked far too busy. But, some drunk chick with crimped hair got so blasted and used MEL’S HEAD to regain her wibbly balance. Hahahaha! When that text came in, I almost DIED. If you know Mel…YOU DO NOT EVER USE HER HEAD to find your balance. You don’t ever use her ANYTHING, without her consent, to find any form of anything! Hahaha! Especially if you chosen to crimp it up. Don’t crimp. It’s bad for you. It makes you look more drunk.

Double B has started going to the gym. I’m shocked, as she doesn’t look gymmy, but she is. I’m noticing that she’s water drinking, fruit eating and now signing up to gym memberships? It’s confusing me? I liked it better when she refused to eat potatoes unless they came in ‘smiley face’ form, or ham, unless it was served with a Billy Bear face on it.

Firmonnell is BACK and thank the fucking LORD. How dare she dash off to Tenerife with her family and leave me to my own lonely devices with no evil text banter to fill my much needed void. I’m so losery, that I even messaged her when I knew that she was on plane and couldn’t text back. But she’s BACK…and YES, I FINALLY FILLED A VOID.

Not sure what’s happening right now, but my inbox is filling up with men? They’re all tapping at my messenger waiting for some kind of response? I’m not good at responding, i know….but it’s because I don’t like lots of pressure from people that I don’t think really know me. It makes me run away, (yipppppeee) as I always believe that they have judged me on a picture and have an incorrect idea of what i’m actually like.

I’m quite traditional when it comes to love..and I have a one track mind. So if i fancy someone, I only really focus of them…that’s something that half of my inbox would never really guess? My persona is flirty, but my soul is loyal. (A bit deep for a Sunday. Lol) So Yes, I did once say that I prefer men to be forward but….

Well..to be honest I have to….

Whatever….Lol I am utterly flattered. So thank you. The lovely messages (and I do read them all, even though I don’t manage to reply) made me smile.

*Runs away and hides.*

Lots of people always ask me about my love life…and well I’m not an easy person to date and I reckon that I match well with other ‘not so easy to date’ people. In entertainment or any career where in which you need to both focus and promote yourself, work hard, be away, or hustle…it’s more difficult to find love. You have to rely on the loving stable other, to just ‘get it’ and understand…..it’s never easy. You yearn for something or someone to ‘get it‘ or for your relationship to just run easily. So when you have it, you grab in both hands and try to hold onto it forever. You treasure it. MADLY.

In LA, it’s really easy, because everyone’s doing the same thing. Everyone’s career focused. That comes first. They achieve everything imaginable and make all their dreams come true. THEN they do love, build a family and do the rest of it….properly. No one is living a normal life over there. Love is unconventional. But everyone gets how it is.

In England, it’s not as simple as that for successful men or ‘boss it’ kinda girls. It’s harder and it’s not a bad thing, as people are more ‘togethery’ in Blighty. They do forever. They love hard. They meet when they’re teens and stay together through eternity. They know what they want and it’s lovely….and i’m understanding it more and more, as days go by…in Hollywood…none of that existed when I was a 20 something. But I don’t dislike that. I loved my time in LA. I love who I am and what I stand for and I love that I never ‘just settled’ for whoever or whatever.

The next time I get married, I will be marrying the most amazing man alive.

The idea is to keep it simple. When you complicate something as pure as love…it dashes it with negative salt shakes, that can often make it meander inappropriately.

Anyway, i hope you all have the most delicious bank holiday weekend!

I’m off on my travels!

I’ll check in later.

Thank you for following my life.

ps/ Exciting things are about to happen.

 

 

 

 

Worms, Love & Coffee

‘Well i’m gonna have to take it incase I have worms…’ said Firmonnell to a crowd of morning girl besties, as we stood by her for morning coffees, as we waited for the kettle to boil.

‘Fairytale Blond’ was washing coffee cups at the sink, I had already come prepared with a coffee in hand and pencil dress, as I lent on the side, in my specs.

‘Why is there people SKIPPING on the front of the worms box? What’s that got to do with curing worms?’ Said Double B, as she lifted up the box and placed it back down by a microwave, before delivering the news that ‘sex was had’ the evening before and her partner was so excited, that he didn’t even know how to contain himself, as it hadn’t happened in SO long. Lol.

‘It lasted a good……one minute. Then I went to sleep.’ 

Hahaha! I *heart* ‘Double B.’

Boys are always hilarious when they haven’t had sex in ages. I mean, gosh there have been times when i’ve found myself in compromising ‘sexy’ positions ( the last time being in a penthouse months ago in Manchester) and the guy has been all ‘noooo, noooo, I don’t want to cum yet. Wait! Nooo.’ Dying with laughter! That was the evening that ‘Double B’ had.)

‘Ah! Well that’s it then. That’s my entire blog, done before 9am,’ I laughed out loud, whilst sipping coffee.

‘Aww, don’t put about my worms in it, cos I don’t have worms, I’m just having to take this as a precaution….’said Firmonell. She said it, as she poured a shot of worm medicine, moaned that it was a ‘tenner each time’ and then smiled with very mild glee because it was ‘banana flavoured.’

HAHAHAHA!

As if,‘ said Fairytale Blond. ‘Last time, I had apparently had flipping Gonorrhea in the blog, so you’ll definitely get in with worms!!!!’ 

Then as all coffees were poured and as we stood three giant floors up, looking over the whole town, from our glass windowed, walled castle of an office…we paused, pissed ourselves laughing and then just like that, strutted out the door and got to work.

Today was one of those GREAT DAYS! Everything was great today. It was just one of those ‘everything felt right and went right’ days of hustle. We worked it. We owned it! We smashed it! But at the same time, we had the BEST time. It was hilarious! It was just one of those days where nothing was muddled, everything slotted into place, we were totally in control and we got our ‘game’ on…as chicks, doing business.

(Okay, i’ve just poured a gin and tonic, so lets do this.)

Today was one of those days where I randomly achieved because as all the office bustle was going on…my phone kept *pinging* at me with good news, great news, yes, yes, fab news. Everything was so great, that it kinda made me panic. I remember turning to Firmonnell when no one was around or listening and just saying,

‘Okay, I’m feeling nervous..’

‘Why?’

‘Well all this stuff is happening…(and I explained the stuff to her)…and it’s all SO good that I can’t even believe that it’s happening to me right now. It’s too many good things, all at one time and good things don’t happen to me like that! I mean if I marry, I end up divorced. If I have a baby, I end up being a single mum. If I have a work success…something always goes wrong…’

‘No…you need to do it and go with it, as it’s not often that you, or anyone gets opportunities like the ones your getting right now. You need to strike when the irons HOT, as they won’t come around again. SO go with it. This is YOUR time and it hasn’t JUST happened, you’ve WORKED for it, you’ve made it happen and you’ve set it all up to happen..If you don’t do it now, you won’t get the chance to do it again..’

And in that moment, even though I didn’t say much, I smiled internally, because she directly made me feel like I could conquer anything, like I was the luckiest girl alive.

Then I looked down at my phone, as another email came in regarding a work opportunity. So I quietly sauntered outside, before I grabbed a salad and took a very exciting phone call. That made me then, have to MAKE a phone call.

Today was a great day! We were on it, organised and let me tell you, sticking to your strengths… works.

(Awww, the Maltese PE teacher, who was on ‘Last Man Standing’ has sent me a messenger *kissy face* emoji. Lol. He’s sweet. But other guy that chose a different chick over me. 🙂 Tut. Tut. Tut  🙂 )

‘Do know that these guys aren’t choosing other chicks because you’re hideous. It’s actually the opposite. You’re intimating and almost too good to be true. It scares us’ said my guy friend on my *speaker* drive home.

‘Yeah but, i’m not bothered. My Mr.Right won’t be terrified of me at all. I’ll be his perfect girl and he’ll be brave enough to go for it. I don’t feel bad, I feel confident.’

And I really do mean that! I’m feeling on top of the world and radiating a *magic* right now that it almost irrepressible. I’m filled with a positive glow that is contagious. I’m having a great time during this chapter and i’m feeling really grateful.

So much is happening…and it’s a big change, but a worth it change.

Yes, there are times when I feel nervous about everything and there are times when I worry. But i’m emotionally schooled enough to just get on with it and do it merrily with faith. I literally have the heart of a lion and just believe that if you work hard and put something great out there, you’ll receive great things in return.

Anyway, i’m going to go and enjoy a gin and the weekend.

I have a family day tomorrow and an interview to conquer.

I love you all.

Thank you for following my life.

ps/ Totally weeing myself at the fact that every time I received a call today, I ended up getting this weird fit of the giggles, as I answered, yet for some reason, I didn’t go with it and instead tried to make like I was fine and normal…All I kept saying was…’I’m sorry I just have a cough.’

Why am I a tool?