So! I thought April was going to be heavy, but y’see…if you plonk yourself around great people, happy people, true people, strong people and have an environment filled with love and support…yet an environment of such that you are ready and willing to embrace…nothing is ever too heavy or a burden.
Right now, I have it great and I can’t believe how lucky I am to firstly not just be grateful for all things wonderful, but to be smart enough and positive enough to actually SEE how great I have it. May sound bizarre to some of you, yet believe me there are some tortured souls in this world, who lay safe guarded behind the mask of their negative past. They let it control every INCH of their future…knowingly…and all because they dare not try to break free from it and heal..because they might actually have to face the real world. Their pain actually comforts them. They think they’re in control and they try to control everything around them, when really their past completely controls them..making them the weakness beings on the planet. They suddenly become completely exposed and get terrified, as then they reach for their endless coats of blame and poorly attempt to pin point and hang them on anything they can in panic. Or do the opposite and make themselves the focal point for attention…for love.
The problem with this system is that they lose the good people in their lives because you can’t continually get away with such behaviour, when you tinker it on the strong, emotionally healthy, loved and happy. They have people around them who adore them and catch them before they even fall. They do the right things, with all the right priorities in check, but most of all not only do they have love, but they completely and utterly love themselves inside and out and to the point where it glows.
So knowing all that, lets just say in my love life i’m in a position where I can happily say (in my big kitten 😉 Ultimatum voice) that a being either pulls themselves together, recognizes the issues that they have (which they already in secret recognise, but daren’t say out loud) and take the correct steps in order to heal for the best of what they should care about, OR they can just go..and leave everything behind happily, reliving the same old story over and over again, learning the same old lessons, with no control, a mist of forever unhappiness, loss and regret and enjoy it because it is what they wanted. It’s what they chose. The safety net of their controlling, negative past. You can’t have both and most normal minded people, who aren’t issue clouded…. realise that. I’m done faffing around. Why…? Because I can be! The love and respect i have for MYself and MY babies…outweighs any minor bullshit.
Let’s put it this way, i woke up with a smile on my face, to the most gorgeous little girl, jumping up and down on my bed, laughing and telling me she loved me, with a great email for my eyelash line, ready for me to read from The States, with a baby boy gleefully clapping, whilst trumping, as he tried practicing to say the word ‘Mama’ flawlessly, with a text reading my day job working hours for this next week upon us. Then followed a text from my Mum, who told me she was coming around to take me to lunch & a smile from my Daddy who looked like he couldn’t be more proud of me. I recieved a joke from a good friend, a ‘bump into’ from a lovely distance in law acquaintance, with a pop in from a stranger who had just found out his girlfriend was pregnant & was blushing down the Clearblue shelves. I got a positive phone call from a happy sisterly ‘bride to be,’ and then a stream of photos (of myself ofcourse 🙂 from a genius photographer, who has made me very excited about my lash line and the future! I have a wine. Oh and I got asked out on a date by a young, half Spanish Doctor…a Cardiologist…YES he keeps people’s hearts beating for a day job…that I can’t go on, simply because i’m not quite ready, I’m focusing on me and well i have no free time as of right now. However, i’m flattered. Course I would be. 🙂 🙂 Everything I noticed today was positive and you can tell a negative being, as the only things they will talk to you about are the bad things, or they’ll only point out the bad points in you. If you can’t see the good in someone great then shame on you 🙂 because a million other people can.
I never fight unless i’m pushed and i never push first, I push second…but harder. Yet i’m at a point where I never felt stronger and because everything is going swirled with harmony and potential success. The babies, the lash line, the day job, the family, my friends, my life, myself…all good. If you’re down, get up. If you’re weak, get strong. If you’re doing all the wrong things, you already know. Quit and do all the right things. I read a quote the other day saying that ‘a bad beginning can never be changed, but it is never too late to make that great ending happen. ‘
I’m a lucky girl. 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 I’ve been through the hard time in my life and I did it in the toughest town to do hard… in the world. Hollywood. 🙂 I’ve graduated with flying colours and now there’s nothing but upwards and success to celebrate!!
Embracing your inner kitten is about getting through the tough times with flair, confidence and magic. ‘Magic’ can be wine, crossed fingers, a well oiled plan or just that bit of ‘ooh laa.’ My new lash line celebrates the windows to your souls…ya peepers, the things that help you see that little bit more clearly. (Yes, ti is also a scheme for me to make money :), yet it’s dipped in a something that I love and swirled with passion and glamour. It’s dashed in luxury and winked at by moi, just for YOU.
Enjoy it, keep it sexy and love it like a Wunna. x
Ps/ Now, I shall proceed to tango around this living room, with my son…for kicks and laughter. 😉