Definitely woke up with Junior’s foot in my face. Fortunately, it’s the cutest little foot in all the land. So, I counted myself luckily. 😉 Junior doesn’t like to sleep alone. He doesn’t like to BE alone in general. So he always ends up in ‘Mama’s bed,’ just to feel safe & secure and I love it because they’ll come a time when he doesn’t want me anywhere NEAR his bedroom, I’m sure. Haha.
Therefore, right now, I don’t take these moments for granted. Plus mums are MEANT to help their babies feel safe and more comfortable. (He turned 7 on June 1st & had the best lockdown birthday 🎂 party.)
Then at 1am, in trots a half asleep Ruby, with her sassy, curly top knot. She wears it to one side, but only when she’s in her pink Ted Baker nighty?
‘I can’t sleep. Can you make me dough balls?’
‘I’m asleep. No. Stop. Haha.’
‘Well, can I have crackers and that left over caviar, you got from Tesco?’
‘It’s 1am….are you actually really hungry?’
‘No. Not at all. Haha.
She giggled and then got into my bed tooo!
So last night no-one in Wunna land wanted to sleep alone. Or should I say, we all wanted to be together.
Things are feeling great at home. Lockdown eases up a little tomorrow and I guess I’m just gonna go with the natural flow of it all? Is it safe? Is it not? I don’t know? But i’ll plonk on my mask & stick to the guidelines.
There are a lot of changes happening in Wunna land. That’s quite normal though. They’re quite personal changes and well very big changes. However, ALL the changes (thank The Gods) are GOOD changes. We made a few decisions as a family and well I feel like I’ve had to live my life with my fingers crossed over the passed year. Although it’s quite frankly a good method when there’s Morning much else you can do because it’s hopeful. It’s not how Ruby, Junior and I wish to necessarily tango.
Changes are being made. Positive ones.
Anyway, on Friday I finally got to ‘self tape’ again & it felt so satisfying. I can’t even tell you. It felt THAT good. I auditioned for a new series, it was a ‘pilot,’ and I hope I get it. The idea behind the story & script is amazing. It’s such a fresh, innovative way to look at a very popular industry & tell a story. It’s films in Manchester and you know I love all things Northern.
I still have the film ‘Heads First’ to be shot in Manchester in September & I recently booked the second series of ‘The Series of Light’ with Oxygen films. I look forward to it all! I love being part of films & stories that need to Beverly made because they’ll make a difference.
Yesterday, on my insta, I also posted a lot about ‘Leave in Lurch.’ I cameo in it. Ruby stars in it and very I just can’t wait to see it! They’ll be another blog coming up on that, when it’s ready! But working ‘Green Run Production’ was amazing. They were first class!
I’m excited for it all. I got to chat to ‘Clint’ last night about work. Great actor. We played ‘Paula’ and ‘Vince’ in the film ‘Perfect,’ earlier in the year. Y’know, Clint and I are really similar people and we both want to do well. So that chat alone made me feel that ambitious energy again. The ‘juice’ as I like to call it. It reminded me that there’s a whole lot of 2020 left. It’s certainly NOT cancelled.
If I’m being honest…I feel like I’ve gad a GREAT year this year. My lockdown was fabulous! 🙂 I enjoyed my time!
I’m still alcohol free! At the end of this month it will have been 3 whole months!!! It’s actually quite easy now. I weirdly don’t miss drinking, but only because I lost weight, I felt better…all sorts.
Plus, I started getting all these really cringy flashbacks. Y’know the awful, embarrassing ones you get. Ones that you try to shake out your head, so you don’t cry of shame. Haha. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had some GREAT times!!!!! But those horrid, little tinkers. Those horrific, smudges of memory, that keep strutting back in…are awful.
The great thing is that they power me forward. (That wine needs to get put down. Haha.) I’ve also actually learnt how & why I used to use alcohol in my life. It’s been so eye opening and certainly uplifting. Plus, Big Brother Rex said he’d take me out to celebrate, when lockdown is lifted. AS he celebrates his own sobriety also!
In fact I think he’s on TV tonight? Isn’t it ‘Big Brothers Best Episodes?’
Anyway! Good friend! Please watch it!
Last but not least…TIKTOK. I’ve turned i to a massive Tiktok fan! I can’t remember if I blogged it? I certainly told EVERYONE…But I hit my first MILLION views last week and it weirdly felt so good…like such an achievement?
Maybe because I set a goal and hit it? Maybe because I genuinely LOVE performing and making the videos? Maybe because I can’t believe that so many people watched them and engaged?
I don’t know?
But I love it. I feel great!!! Dancing about, certainly makes me happy! It’s a great way to de-stress and a wonderful way to perform& connect with people, while sets are closed.
So I thank you ALL for watching, commenting, liking and sending me encouragement! Haha. I’m so grateful for it!
I’m getting all your emails also, for signed pictures. I’m gonna try and get through them next week. There’s over 2000…so slowly but surely i’ll get there.
Thank you so much for everything! You make the kids and I smile everyday! We appreciate it!
All my love,