I’ve lost my phone. I have no clue where it’s disappeared to? I lost it last night. It must’ve fallen out my bag, somehow? I’ve done the ‘find my iphone’ thing. I’ve wished upon stars. I’ve retraced ALL my steps.
I literally have no access to any of my social accounts, or my email account until I’ve sorted it all out, because…and of course…I have everything on a two factor authentication vibe…Meaning my accounts can’t be accessed without a special ‘text to my phone’ code. Lol. A phone that I kinda don’t have? Haha.
But hopefully all will be sorted out shortly OR I might even find it!
If you have it…please return it to Wunna land. If you don’t….that’s fine…Yet if you receive my messages from my number, (until further notice) it’s not me.
I can however currently be contacted at this email….(in the meantime.)
But yes…i’m currently filming, ‘L’appel du vide,’ so alls actually truly well.
Everything happens for a reason and right now…I’m not meant to have the comfort of my phone. Lol
L’appel du vide’ is a really internal film. It’s filled with dark places, raw thoughts and excessively deep realisations. It’s a mentally emotional film and I’ve chosen to go with ‘method’ for my wee bit of ‘i am the female lead’ acting. I want to get it right and do the role justice.
Day 1, has been wonderful! I was definitely in a creepy basement…in pink satin sheets. The movie is going to be stunning….
I can’t wait to be able to share it with you….
Big love! All the kisses…
Look after you’re phones…it’s rubbish when you lose them. 🙂
I’m kinda just feeling really blessed. I know that sounds ‘cheesy.’ But I just can’t find the right word? I guess it’s just weird that almost every single day I wake up, a little dream of mine seems to come true? I don’t know why? I don’t know how? Maybe i’ve served my time of hardship? Yet, right now…I’m kinda on a ‘roll’ and i just feel so lucky. I just feel so grateful. I’m beaming from the inside out. Something’s happened? I don’t know what? Yet, the airs of Wunna land are glittered with luck and happiness. It’s swirling all the way around us, filled with love and sassy cheer. I feel really fortunate. It’s Feb 10th 2020. It’s a really good time to be me. Lol.
But let me take you back…
Obviously I started filming ‘Perfect.’ It’s a remarkable film. I’ve already filmed by bits, so i’m personally ‘wrapped’ on it now. Yet it was just such an honour to work alongside the Northern Film School (it’s one of the best film schools in the nation AND it’s based in Leeds.) I was and STILL AM, so grateful to be given the opportunity to create such magic with the people who ARE the ‘future of film.’
Everything they deliver is first rate. It’s first class. It’s a dream. I mean, any chance I get the opportunity to work alongside them, I do. They’re so utterly professional, in an almost fun, yet sophisticatedly- slick… manner. They’re organised. They trust each other’s work. But most of all they’re kind and they’re talented. They truly go above and beyond, the call of duty, to make their films magical. There are never any ‘egos’ and as soon as you walk onto ANY of their sets, you just FEEL a creatively, contagious excitement.
I got to play ‘Paula,’ in the film ‘Perfect.’ She was the nations most loved ‘Talk Show Host’ and it was just the most phenomenal experience. I mean even when Olly first gave me the call to tell me, that he wished to offer me the role, I was ecstatic. I filled up with excitement. I knew it was right!
I did a lot of improv for my role. I always think i’m rubbish at improv. Yet it’s weird how when you feel so comfortable on set, you kinda get carried away with it all. It becomes so real. Lets say if ‘chatting shit’ was a forte…it certainly was mine, on that day. Haha. I was lucky enough to work alongside the lovely Clint Gordon, who plays ‘Vince Locke.’ ( I mean, they couldn’t have cast a better guy for that role.) Yes, he’s delightfully attractive. Which is always a bonus, when on set…;) Yet, I never want THAT to take away from the fact, that he’s actually a truly wonderful actor. I guess, a lot of people will always talk about the way he looks. Yet I want you to notice the work that he does…
No-one works as hard as Clint. He’s gracious. He’s kind. Yet he’s ambitious. He wants to do well. He’s a true talent & goes ‘above and beyond’ to make sure he delivers his role appropriately.
But at the same time…he’s fun.
We’re both Leeds. We’re both Northern. So ‘on & off’ set we got on really well, which made ‘on screen’ chemistry so so easy…and you really do need that. I mean, great banter, cups of tea (or in my case black coffee, with all the sugars,) bad jokes, waiting around in Green Rooms, makeup rooms, line running, piss taking, selfies, laughter, chats about life and filming took place.
Me: ‘I can see ya cogs turning…‘
Clint: ‘I don’t want you to be able to see the cogs turning. They’re always turning.’
Me: ‘We need to find someone to take all our BTS shots? Haha… Did you smuggle your phone onto set? I did…’
Clint: ‘Yeah, yeah… Anyway, I’ve stolen these party rings from the green room, for a sugar fix. D’ya want one?’
Me: ‘Nooo….Where are we filming the next bit from?’
In a day, i must’ve made a hundred great memories, that i’ll carry for a lifetime. From ‘brow time’ with the makeup artists, watching Ebony solve everyones problem on set …with anything from a bag of basil, lemon tea or a nose in her hand. Olly’s ‘Everything is going to be okay’ smile. He has the best ‘Everything is gonna be okay’ smile. Wes, made me laugh, between takes, shouting fake ‘CUTS’ and between hand shaking with the extras. I had excellently sensible, yet brief chats with Lydia, who plays ‘Luisa’ (the female lead)…over pasta, fake noses and ‘I brought a cuppa soup.’ I love Lydia & Ian (who plays her Father in the film) very dearly. I didn’t actually do any of my scenes with them. But it was great to be part of something with them…I’m excited to watch their scenes, at the screening!
Jannah Zainol. The kindest Director, in the world ever. There’s a sweetness…a softness. Yet at the same time, she knows exactly what she wants, exactly how she’s like it to be done and exactly how to bring the best out of everyone. She’s sharp. She’s dynamic. Yet she’s calm. She’s not troubled by anything, in any way and i love that.
She told me that i’d brought such a ‘warmth’ to the set and It made me smile. It’s the things like that, that she is also SO great at. I loved every moment I had working with her.
Yet, the whole entire team, itself….I couldn’t have worked with a better bunch. Every single person on that set WANTED TO DO WELL. Everyone was alive, even during the ‘chill’ times…where you kinda HAVE TO find something to occupy yourself. Every single person on that set, wanted to give their best. They wanted to help one another, create a story & make movie magic. They kinda wanted to do themselves justice and fill out their role wholeheartedly. You just can’t go wrong, with people like that. Y’know, when you’re surrounded by such talent, love and passion.
I can’t wait for the screening…I know the film’s gonna do so well. It’s really well cast. 😉
So, pleeeeease do head over to their Instagram page and give them a follow. There’s so much happening behind the scenes, that you can ‘in the moment’ watch, as they film, edit and produce.
Then… as my day on set finished…my phone *pinged,* so I looked down and scrolled…before i headed up to the changing rooms, to get back into my normal clothes….
I start filming ‘Perfect’ tomorrow & I couldn’t be more excited! I’ve been at the table read this afternoon with Clint, Lydia, Ian…the Directors & Producer. (Jannah, Ollie, Jadine, Ellice…) We went through a bit of the ‘blocking’ ready for the big day tomorrow and I got to have my first cheeky peeky at the set. (I play ‘Paula’ and she’s a ‘popular daytime talk show host.’ I’ve actually always wanted to be a talk show host…So as you can imagine…I’m ridiculously delighted! Haha. It’s just a little bit & I’m gonna do my little bit well.) Everyone looks like they’ve been working really hard. I honestly couldn’t be more excited, so hopefully I’ll do the role some justice. Y’know, be a really great part of a really great team and story.
But all that starts tomorrow. I have a 8.30am call time.
Today! Let me tell you. I saw little snippets of life that made smile. I saw a business man walk out of a Costa, on his way to work, in Leeds city centre. As the door slowly eased closed, behind him, he walked onto the busy Leeds streets, & handed over a fresh, warm drink to a freezing cold, homeless guy, who was trying to wrap himself up, underneath a blanket.
Business Man: ‘It’s a hot chocolate, buddy. Hope that’s okay?’
He smiled and the homeless guy looked up at him and just beamed.
It made my morning.
It’s weird how the smallest gestures, make others peoples world just perfect for a simple moment. It’s contagiously beautiful.
Then as I walked along Kirkstall Road, I saw a blind man, standing tall, waiting to cross the road, when he felt it was the right time. He seemed confident. He knew what he was doing. Yet, the gentleman stood next to him, offered to help him
across the busy street. He linked arms with him and walked him across safely.
When the blind man got to the other side, he smiled and I swear I even saw a glint in his eyes that was filled with absolute thankfulness.
I loved it.
I also saw a mum, with her babies and their Grandad, about to take pictures to influence a well known Waffle House in Leeds. She was beautiful and dressed normal for a mama of two. Yet, literally 7 seconds before the picture was taken…right on cue, she whopped off her jumper at the speed of light, like she’d done it a million times before and took the photo to promote the family waffle joint, in a boob tube…for extra sexy ‘insta likes..’
I get that. I’ve been there. But I guess…everyone has their own version of ‘Perfection.’ We learn along the way.
Then there I was…stood in Superdrug, rummaging through lashes, to find the perfect pair. I found them pretty quickly, but a lady stopped me and said…
‘Do you wear these things? Do you know about these thing?’
I smiled and said ‘Yeah.’
She looked at me and smiled back..Then said.
‘I’m 70 years old, I have alopecia. I’ve lost my hair, but I’m going on a first date. My husband died 4 years ago…But I’ve just been sat at home, on my own for 4 years and I don’t want to do that anymore.’
Me: ‘Aww. You look great. So you want eyelashes?’
Lady: ‘Yes. But I don’t know how to do it pick? I want to look nice. I’m wearing a wig and it’s been hard to date because I have to explain that I’m bald, cos my hair don’t grow. I’ve only talk to him virtual. So this is the first time I’ll see him in real.’
She was Brazilian. I loved her openness. Yet more than anything ….she just wanted someone to chat to. It had nothing to do with eyelashes, or dates….She just wanted to feel a little less alone…
This was actually yesterday. I was stressed out yesterday. I was dashing about like a busy ‘all about me’ whirlwind.
I looked at her, as we stood by the eyelash isle and I noticed that staff were walking by us and doing ‘are you okay’ faces at me. So I just stopped everything…I quit my rush about and boxed away my stress. It didn’t matter anymore. I put my bags down and began talking to her.
In that moment it was all about her. Sonia was her name.
It meant so much to her. She beamed. I picked her a pair of lashes and got her some glue.
I’ll never see her again, yet I was delighted to have given her my time because she’ll never forget it. It made me feel so
wonderful, to have shared a moment with her. I taught her friendship and eyelashes. Lol. She reminded me NOT to stress and of what life was really about.
I walked out of that store, swinging my bags, with a skip in my step and a smile that radiated from inside me. I looked back….and she waved.
Tomorrow I Film ‘Perfect.’
I’m really honoured to be part of this film. The script is phenomenal. The team is first class. I mean I couldn’t work with a more tremendous bunch of peeps. The actors are ofcourse 😉 just wonderful. But most of all…we’re all going to be telling you a story…with a message… that you’ll hopefully watch watch…and love.