It’s a rum ting! Yanno! How ARE you!
*Slurps bottle drizzle.*
I’ve done all my Christmas shopping. Im proud as punch! I’m shimming to the merry sounds of victory! And that is MY CHRISTMAS sorted!!!
I’m not naturally someone who does anything advance. Lol. I’m shit like that. I enjoy pressure and giddy last minute *bursts* of excitement. I’ve smashed it. I’ve nailed it! I’ve had a Taco Bell. (A ‘Faj’ burrito, according to my receipt, to be prescise! 😜 Haha! ) And let me tell you, life feels Wunnaful and I haven’t even had a fucking Baileys over ice yet!
I love Christmas!!!
I’ve panic bought, but I like to leave the kid’s MAIN presents until last, because they seem to have this magical tendency, to change their minds, at a moments notice.
So, with a ‘hair toss, hip bump & wiggle,’ I ordered the ‘Kids electric, Range Rover Evoque’ and 2 Luvabella dolls, on Thursday. I got them Friday! Today, I bought the rest of the shit, that Santa will take all the credit for and OH MY GOD, like a child, I CANNOT WAIT to see them open their gifts!!
I’m an incredibly EXCITABLE by nature. I can’t help it! I’m gushy! I’m like an over excited, Asian popping candy ball!
Raising kids, as a single mum is always really difficult. Yet having kids, as a single mum at Christmas…IS THE MOST AMAZING FEELING!! It’s so fulfilling!!
(I’m not tryna say ‘Kids are just for Christmas!’ Lol I’m just tryna say, it’s much easier, for me…during Crimbo…I love to make people happy. I live for it!! However, I don’t seem to do it often. Haha. At Christmas, when it comes to Ruby & Junior! I smash it!)
Right! Anyway! What am I talking about?
Happy December 22nd! I’m receiving an absolute TON of messages and I’m really grateful! I love them. They keep me going!
Everyone is so utterly shocked that I’m single?? I don’t get why? I’m just shit at love, that’s all! Haha. But you don’t need to worry for me. I’m not worried at all! I’m happy!
Yet, I very much appreciate your thoughts and tweets of lurve…So I thank you. Thank you deeply!
I’ve had so many messages on the lines of…
‘You should have guys lining up..I’m so confused???’
‘It’s because you’re such a catch. You’ve become a conquest to a guy!’
I’m very flattered. It’s is very sweet! But yeah. It’s just how it is right know! It’s not bad! It’s just life! But fuck it, let’s pour a rum and nibble gravied sprouts.
What I’m saying is…I’m a good! 😉
I’m enjoying the Christmas break! I love a chill, after such a busy year! I will say that, in a way, at the same time as enjoying ‘the chill,’ I’m kinda MISSING working! (I’m such a loser! Lol) I’m having to keep occupied! But I’m doing well. I’m focused.
Everyone’s asking me what happens I’m the New Year in Wunna Land…
I’ve been dying to get back into it all and I’m excited to bring my own sexy back! I don’t care what anyone thinks! I’m ‘YOLO.’ I’ve got this!
I am FULLY booked out on Glamour shoot, after Glamour shoot in the new year and I’m so happy about that, because if I love anything…it’s that. It comes so easy to me! I live and breathe it. I love it and I’m gonna own it!
I kinda let others define who I was supposed to be, for a little while. But why? That’s shit! It confused me? I didn’t know what the right thing to do was. Then I decide that the right thing to do was whatever made me happy! Whatever made me feel alive. Whatever made me feel of purpose!
People can be whoever they want..and they should! They should stand proud, regardless!! You can do it all. You can have it all! Don’t let anyone mould your journey, to fit their fears!
In a way, I think it’s kinda ace that I can still ‘sexy shoot’ at 38! I mean WTF! Haha! On my grave stone it’ll say…
‘I still Goddit!’
(Can you tell I’ve had rum?)
I had this conversation with the powers above…the other day..and it went like this…
Them: ‘Chrissie! When choosing a direction, you can’t do the sexy model thing, but have that insane, funny northern personality. You’re either the unobtainable, but sweet, sex symbol or the loud, funny northern chick.’
Me: ‘Oh? I thought I could just be me?? Haha!’
I kinda fought it. But then I kinda realised that they were right, as we watched the movement of my ‘audience,’ meander.
I was both at the same time (which is me.) That’s who I am! Then I played each version of my personality separately.
And the ‘THEM’ ended up being right!!!
But, how crazy is that! It’s bad how the majority of people STILL put things and humans into specific categories…Y’know, ‘boxes’ that their minds and judgements, tape up.
I’m breaking the seal. I’m setting myself free! And you should too!!!
Can we start a rummy rebellion, please?
Anyway, I’m off now! I can’t be bothered to finish this blog! Lol. I’ve chatted enough!! Haha!
Really do relax and enjoy your pre-Christmas weekend!!!
I’ve had a birthday. I’ve waved the glittery flag of happiness. I’ve so far survived 2018, which was certainly a new chapter…and even though i’ll certainly have to go on a beautiful fad diet, after filling my love humps with tequila, wine and any ale that would have me… I’m doing okay. I’m a year older. Probably not wiser. But that doesn’t really bother me. I’m quite the ‘together’ chick anyway, aside from when it comes to my love life. I’m really excited for Christmas. I’m loving being a Mama. And I have so much ahead of me, as I confidentially try and sail into 2019.
This year was the first year, i decided to do nothing but home & family fur my birthday. It was bliss. It was everything I wanted, after such a pushy year of ‘da hustle.’ I tried my best. I won. I lost. I loved. I enjoyed. I drank too much. I laughed. I cried. I did it all.
I’m ever so grateful for every single venue who had asked me to come play ‘birthday’ with them/ for them and I can’t wait to see you in the New Year. But I just needed me time, family time, time with the kids…and to regroup. Not because I felt lost. But because I felt happy. I wanted to celebrate quietly and without it being a ‘hoo haa’ for a little paycheck. I spent my Year influencing all sorts, so it meant so much to me to just put on my comfies and relax!
I hope you all have the wildest Mad Friday. I’m DEFINITELY chilling because I can’t be arsed with being felt up by drunks, who’ve been ‘bottled’ or punched up, in giant taxi queues. Lol Yet please do, have the most glorious time.
My birthday month is when I feel at my most ‘ooh laa.’ I hope you do too, it’s a time where you should just enjoy being YOU and not give a ‘narnas’ about what anyone thinks or says about you. Their doing THEIR life. You embrace your version of living and loving.
I’m feeling strong right now, because I’m calm. I’m focussed. I’m chilled. I’m like a rock…with tits. Lol
Push me and YOU’LL fall down. But then i’ll Smile and help you back up. I’m in a good place! I just feel filled with love and I want it share it… I have my friends & family…But I certainly don’t have anyone to kiss under the mistletoe.
Every year, I kind of achieve everything i want. Or I at least take those little essential steps forward. I tinker. I take confident baby steps. I become braver. I’m always filled with that ‘win/lose’ courage aren’t I! I learn…always! That’s for suuuuure!
But OH my GOD!!
Each year I graduate, I never ever manage to find the man OF MY DREAMS!!!
I’m still all single, excited and doughy eyed!
I just don’t get it? Why am I so unlucky in love? Especially when I seem to have all this attention! And I’ve heard all year… from guys who express their actual *terror* of daring to even ask me out. But I find that weird?
It actually makes me feel like no one really fancies me, when I’m apparently ‘one of the most fanciable’ girls?
AND even the guys that did ask me out on dates, or who I chatted to…didn’t follow through…They just left it, like ‘blah.’ Haha!!
What is flipping wrong with me!?! Haha!
So right now, I’m doing me and voting for being happy, sexy, sassy and Wunnaful! I’m a hopeless romantic. I love, love. But I have faith that it’ll find me.
If I’m forever single, I’m forever single. If I’m not…then lucky me.
Whatever will be, will be! I’ll just through it up to the stars & see what magic happens!
Again, I’m filled with excitement and I SO grateful for all your support so far! You’ve made me feel like the luckiest girl alive!
I hope you all have the merriest Christmas. I love you. I love you a lot more than you even realise. To everyone that’s found their way here, may your beautiful world be blessed with shimmies, life and success.
Thank you so much for everything!
Happy Dec 21st!
I really need a rum now…
Hi, my little tinsel wrapped Chucky eggs! I’m writing this on my phone with my thumbs, after refusing a morning Guinness, to instead turn on the fairy lights and allow in a little merriment, in my own way. (You’re gonna have to bare with me. I’m shit with thumb tappering. You can’t even sip your pina colada.)
I’ve had SUCH a busy time, following the First Dates thing. I’ve kinda had no rest! Mainly because I’ve had a whole bunch of other stuff lined up..that I’ve had to smash, get in the can, shoot, write, learn, influence, visit or read…and all before Christmas!
I’ve been on every train. I’ve lost both sets of car keys. I’ve won. I’ve lost. I’ve been hit on no end. However, by boys who don’t wanna take me on an actual date..They just wanna ‘bone’ me like I’m a prize…not like I’m human.
But it doesn’t bother me, cos I know exactly what I’m looking for…Boys can’t mess with me. Plus every time some guy, tries to fly in with a boner…who has no intention of anything more, but the merry art of ‘boning’..it’s reconfirms the ‘what I need’ more and more. It does this by showing me what I don’t need….with gin bells on.
That alone makes me happy. I don’t sell myself short anymore. I’m grown! Being all wise, makes me feel sexy!
Pats in the back for me!!
I’m loving meeting you all. It’s been great to have met so many of you, who have been filled with ‘First Dates’ love for me. It’s weird because it was only a little date in the telly. But I’ve just had so much love from so many people…in bars, in shopping centres, down wine isles, in playgrounds, all over! I’ve had hugs, love and every human, being human. Y’know sending me blessings for the future..because Cupid is a bastard. 😂
I have time for absolutely everyone. So it makes me really happy, when you stop me for a banter or a selfie. So many people still believe in true love!
Being a romantic! I love that, with all my heart!
I’ve felt lost through the whole of last week. Ruby, Junior and I, ALL have! I’ve been filled with a jolly jiggle on absolute anxiety! It’s been stressful. The kids have been my world through it. I mean little Ruby even read me poems before bed, so I’d sleep.
Chick friend: ‘You kinda have this way of acting like you’re over the moon and fine, when you’re scared or nervous.’
Very true! I’m a pro at it. I have the heart of a true entertainer! Lol
My mum, who’s my life line, tinkered on holiday for 2 weeks. (How Dare She!!) And the timing of it was shit. Y’see whenever a bit of ‘look at me’ occurs, in my life & I’m dipped in a 5 second ‘light of lime,’ I always need her more than ever. I need her more than ever!!
But she was GONE!!
It was good for me though, because you can’t live in a comfort zone. I’ve got quite good at having the rug pulled, yet still being able to stand and sip my wine!
Now, i’m an independent girl, aren’t I! I’ve travelled the world, with work, on my own since being 19, to dream chase! I was juicy! I still am! But as I’m growing older, my priorities have changed…I’m a sassy bit of ‘family girl’ now. I’m happy, when I’m around the people who I love…because they too care about me the most!
They protect me.. My world is filled with love!
Mum: ‘Chrissie, you can’t be in entertainment and get anxious when people stop, to be lovely to you..It’s your job. They’re supporting you! They want a pic because they’ve loved watching you do, you’re do. Don’t be frightened.’
Me: ‘I’m not frightened. I love it. I love THEM! I do all that well. Sometimes it makes me feel more insecure?’
I guess, when you gave the mist around you, it’s wonderful. However after a bit, it starts to ‘Circus’ a little…(in fact, it’s not always wonderful, because cyberland will sometimes hate on me. Haha!)
When it starts to ‘Circus,’ that’s when I need my Mama!
Mum: ‘I love you. But you need to rely on your own strength. You need to feel rocky to get strong. When you were a little girl, you were filled with this irrepressible STRENGTH. Now that life has bashed you about a bit..you rely on me or shut away & you can’t, because I’m not gonna be here forever!’
I’ve just got back from London! I had a shoot, 2 meetings and I then did drinks at the Great Northern Bar.
It was cold and chucking it down. But inside where the wine was flowing..it was warm! It was cosy!
Bartender: ‘You’re an attractive girl! Where are you headed tonight?’
Me: ‘I’m just doing life… 😉 I need a large white wine please…with ice in.’
Then after phone calls I was greeted by the most beautiful girl named Lexie and her gay friend from Manchester! (Who didnt sound northern at all!) They were great. So much fun! We did First Date selfies and basically got trashed.
Then these dudes from East London (who’d been trying to get our attention via the fine art of dance routines, under chandeliers) joined us…They were In Christmas jumpers, cheeky and wild! The manager kept having to come over and tell us all to ‘keep the noise down.’
It all went a bit mental then!
Every single person strutting up to the bar had just watched my episode of ‘First Dates!’ It was so strange but ace?? So many people love the show. It felt great!
Then the cheeky East London boys (who ALL had wives and girlfriends…) decided to take a shot at trying to see if they could get me to have sex with them.
This is my life!
Sometimes I think that maybe I’m just made for ‘entertainment’ and not real life true love.
Why can’t I have real life true love??
Me: ‘No thanks. You need to be thinking about your girlfriend mate!’
Staff: ‘Are you alright, Chrissie?’
Guy: ‘You only live once. My mum passed away. It taught me that! I’ve got a girlfriend, yeah. But I’m obviously not gonna miss out on an opportunity to be with you! If you want that! You’re beautiful!’
Me: ‘What!!! No thanks. Your girlfriends beautiful. You should call her!’
Everyone was just getting glamourously Christmas drunk! But you need a blow out at times, don’t you!
I ended up puking! Sleeping in my dress. Waking up in my hotel feeling awful, with an untouched Macdonalds by my side…
It took me 3 hours to get out of bed..but as soon as I did..I walked to Kings Cross station, feeling the most hungover I’ve ever felt in my entire life…
I could’ve died. Nothing is worse than being at a train station…waiting…when rough! Plus, I was in heels because I forgot to pack flats. Plus, I had to through my extensions in the bin because they had sick on. Lol
Then fucking Liam calls me (who was currently filming a tv show) with a…
’I need a favour…’
So in my most hungover state at kings cross..I end up having to do his show!!
It was so much fun! But I couldn’t wait to get back to the babies!
An hour and a half later… I was thankfully back on northern soil!!
Hiya! It’s me. What a week! I’ve been an entire juicy mixture of utter happiness, shattered, thrilled, rushed, angry, filled with a bit of anxiety and calm…all at the same time. But i’ve felt confident. I’ve felt like i’ve been bursting with ‘ooh laa.’
How you feel is everything, isn’t it?
Once you find your ‘ooh laa,’ you feel as though you can conquer any fear, like you can bash down any wall…like you can actually be the hero of your own glitzy story.
Don’t let others get you down… Let them get on with their own version of life….
This is THE FIRST TIME, in that week, where I’ve actually been able to just sit at my laptop and ‘diary’ out my story. I’ve missed being able to ‘diary.’ But i’ve been really busy and i’ve also had to let dust settle a little, until I could get to back to normal.
My blog is my therapy, without writing a diary, i’m lost.
I cannot even believe how manic my last week, has been. I’ve had so much support and love. I’ve enjoyed hugging you all in shopping centres and clinking cocktails with you in bars.
I wanted to thank Yorkshire. You have been HUGE over the last week for me. Thank you so much for all the support I received. All your messages, all your tweets have made me BEAM.
Any bit of ‘hate’ that cyber land flew my way, was cut short by a ‘cyber flat cap,’ who jumped down their throat and told them to hush a little. Well it was more like ‘shut the fuck up.’ Hahaha.
Yorkshire is ace!
My work load and schedule seems to have filled 40 more Santa’s sacks… 😉 Any company that has anything to do with dating have seen to have knocked on Wunna Lands door. Every cocktail bar/hotel has sent me a ‘come to see us’ wink. All the dudes are like toy soldiers and now asking me on dates…
Jonny who? lol
I’ve had accidental beef with @bodybagnell aka ‘Unilad’ who i’m shortly going to play ‘Giant Kenya’ with, after mistaking him for ‘Prince William’ when he’s really a gangsta. Hahah. (He cracks me up. He is such banter!!)
BB: ‘As if you’ve just started public beef with me…My nephew and I are gonna **** you & your daughter up! Haha.’
Me: ‘As if! We would’ve stolen your wallets before you even started to banter. Haha.’
I forgot that the general public weren’t actually part of our conversation and just posted ‘beef’ like they were!! Hahaha.’
What? An Insta Story post is all I know!!!
I also can’t wait to meet JJ…who helped a sista out when in need. He’s just been a Godsend…and when people do stuff like, you appreciate their existence so so dearly.
(Back to what you all want to hear about…)
I had the most wonderful time at the First Dates restaurant and I honestly feel so grateful to have been given the opportunity to have a shot at love, under the watchful eye of sexy Fred Siriex.
It was the most magical and somewhat surreal experience ever…and I thank my lucky stars to have made such an unbelievable memory. That was the first blind date, that I had ever been on in my life and Jonny couldn’t have been a better date . Being a lover of life and adventure, I’m so glad that I got to do it in the First Dates restaurant.
There are no words that could ever describe my experience….and as you know…I am NEVER LOST FOR WORDS.
Fair enough, it played as a match…as their matching team actually smashed it. It was a good combo of banter and life. They delivered exactly what I asked for personality wise. He was ace on the date.
Now, I look back…under a regular, no pressure, no cocktaily circumstance, I don’t reckon, I would’ve fancied Jonny. I need more than salesman ‘taking care of you’ for show. He would’ve just been a best buddy. Yet his personality ON THE DATE and on our drinks afterward was great! He’s fun! He is someone that would probably really look after me….yet he’s not reliable enough for me when it comes to love.
Bit on the up, anytime, you end up on Shoreditch, with a bundle of Asian chicks taking selfies with to you.. in a cue, and you skid on the floor, after falling on your back on the dance floor, to ‘Gold Digger’ by Kanye…. you know you had a good time.
That’s where our taxi took us…upon request.
But it’s so easy to get lost in the magic of the restaurant. It’s so nerve wrecking. Your heart beats through your chest. Your palms get a little sweaty and you kinda lose ya head for a second. It’s a mixture of both giddy excitement and the fear of the unknown.
But that’s what life is about! I adore moments like that!
I had the best time. I feel so lucky.
And even though I had all this initial cyber ‘hate,’ (well my voice did,) the amount of LOVE I received over weighed that by far! The enjoyment I had on the date overweighed THAT, for sure. Then the fact that I’d made SO MANY PEOPLE FEEL…made me smile! It’s almost like I accidentally inspired and that’s all I want to do.
Everyone wants to know what’s going on with me now…
Obviously, it didn’t work out with Jonny. We have a similar sense of humour and dodgy past stories. (Lol.) BUT we’re really different people. If you didn’t see the OK Mag thing, (which I actually loved, because no one should ever feel afraid to stand up for themselves and tell their truth. Especially in a moment of disregard.)
WAIT!! GO TO THIS…
Don’t let other people who live by a different moral standing to you, try to control your happy. I’m a hopeless romantic. A LOYAL love bunny. I’m dashed in fun and cheeky northern banter…and i’m proud of that. I don’t live a lie. I am ME…and it’s wonderful. I like to keep things simple and keeps things ‘love.’
From what I know….Jonny’s more complicated than that….and it’s unfortunate for no one other than HIMSELF.
He’s one of the first people that i’m glad i’m not…and I don’t actually mean that angrily, I mean that honestly…because in my mind, he has so much more developing to get through, when it comes to love….and whilst he hates me right now, he’ll look back upon this time and be thankful, that he bumped into me….Until he apologises fur screaming at me, i’ll not peak to him again.
I may be giddy, northern and silly…but i’m swag and i’m grown. I’m not wishy washy. I know what I want. I know what is right for me. I know where I am and i’m proud of who I am and what I stand for as a woman…and as a human being!
I’m not a push over. I’m not someone who backs away from my truth. I’m not someone who suffers fools well, either. AND…I’m not someone you shout at….
I’m not a toddler. I’m not waddling through life in my diaper, banging into walls. I’m ‘swag.’ I got life down. We’re bessies. I did learning. I came out the other end ‘canon ball’ style, in a confetti shower, with flying colours.
Preach over. Haha. ‘kin’ ell.
So yes, I’m proud of who am I…even when i’m in nipple tassles. I’m someone who stands up for every single person, who daren’t speak their mind or their truth. You have nothing to be ashamed of. I have a good picture of the big picture of life. None of the little bits that most people ‘sweat’ matter at all.
JUST LIVE AND LOVE IT.
Y’know, the moment you get caught up in the stress of ‘da little things,’ you’ve lost. You can no longer see the big picture. That’s how unhappiness starts.
This is Wunna Land. It’s real life. It’s Wunnaful! 😉 Find YOUR INNER WUNNA.
The experience was invaluable. First Dates delivered. They gave me actually what I asked for. NOW, I know exactly what I want…
I was gonna tell you all about it. But you’ll just have to search for it, which won’t actually work because I use an alias for everything to prevent that! So you’ll only know, if you know a date of occurrence. Lol. It’s like CSI, but with Pina Coladas, glitter and lazier.
But It’s done now. It’s packaged, parceled and fluttered away to memory lane, by the gin fairies. YIPPPPEEE!
I filmed the date over a year ago. It’s been such a long time. So this lil’ kitten is a moving it along….
I’M SINGLE…and i’m looking for love. I’m interested in someone. After First Dates airing, i feel like they wouldn’t be interested in me.
OH THE ANXIETY. Haha. I’m pathetic. Lol.
Right now, I feel like the HAPPIEST and the LUCKIEST kitten in all of the land. When chicks are happy, we beam. It’s beautiful. It’s magical.
I’m still brimming with life. I’m still swirling with excitement and confidence. It’s Christmas, my favourite time of year!
And It’s my birthday is 8 days!!