Busy Little Story Teller!

My life is constantly changing! However for once, it’s almost like I’m done with the ‘struggle’ part, y’know where stuff just seems happens, so you can learn a very importantly annoying lesson. It’s like I’ve graduated that phase of my life. I had to do my lesson learning in Hollywood. I didn’t learn as well as I thought because I learnt a bit more via the fine art of the ‘hard way’ back home in the uk.

Now, at 40, when I feel like I’m doing alright! I feel ‘solid,’ filled with knowledge and most of all I’m HAPPY. Well now, the things that I’m learning are so much more fruitful because it’s all positive and life changing as it focuses on the joys, my loves, my passion and my career. Nothing bad is having to happen anymore that’s based on a futile moment of whim. I’m following the natural grain and flow of what seems to be happening in my life and I’m only steady pushing blocks where necessary. I trust the flow now & I’m thankful. Sometimes you’ve just godda trust the flow…and let it take you places without worry.

So yeah, all is calm, all is chipper…Ruby and Junior are DELIGHTED and I kinda feel like I’m on my way up, but this time I’m taking the elevator because I’ve bloody done all the stairs. 🙂

I’m BUSY and if you know me personally I’m at my FINEST when I have stuff to do! Haha. I’m certainly a workaholic. Yet I changed everything in my world to make sure that the stuff I did FOR work, was the stuff that made me happy.

When I say that I mean…Work that never feels like work. Work you’re always excited for! Work that you’ve dreamed of doing every since you’ve been a child. Work that’s never about a pay check and always true to your heart. I have that now…

So when I say I’m busy working…I beam with joy…It’s a good thing and I value it so much, as ofcourse it hasn’t always been that way.

If you’ve found yourself here, thank you very much. I hope you enjoy reading through some of my diary. If not…I don’t blame ya. Haha. I’ve been exceedingly rubbish at keeping up the blog. (I have kept a hand written diary though and I guess I needed it to be that way, as my life began changing. It seems that when transitions are occurring, I guess I no longer write them out in the open… like I used to and have done for over 10years. I need the peace and calm away from eyes, until I’m ready, sorted and excited to deliver.) When I was younger, now I look back, my life transitions didn’t seem that big. Probably why I found it easier to write about them openly. They felt big at the time. Haha. Whereas now, the changes are so HUGE and POSITIVE that I just want to make sure that the situations and myself are fully nurtured and that I’ve enjoyed them with my family or the people I have around me…BEFORE I tell my story…

…and I’m a story teller by trade, so it feels good to be doing it with the right ‘feels.’

I keep everything simple and I DO NOT do ANYTHING that doesn’t make me happy & I think that’s one of the most important things that I could pass on to anyone.

So where we at? I’m back in the studio on ‘Steph’s Packed Lunch’ tomorrow, 12:30 Channel 4. ‘Packed lunch’ pretty much saved my lockdown life because being part of the ‘fam,’ kept me performing, got me out the house, kept me social. It’s just such a blessing to be part of such a fun, yet also innovative show! It’s filled with joy and we’ll it’s been recommissioned for another series, so every team member both on & off camera are pretty much overjoyed, because everyone’s worked so hard! We’ve had a break because of the cricket, but I’m back on the telly tomorrow…and every Tuesday from now on.

I have a ‘Zoom’ rehearsal tomorrow for ‘Another day’ which is a comedy feature film I’m in for Amazon Prime. I missed the last rehearsal by accident, so I’m overly cautious to not fuck up the next batch of ‘practice.’ Lol (If I’m being honest, I’m not used to rehearsing this much. Haha. But I love it. It’s such a funny film.)

But anyway, over the last week and a half I’ve just had an over pour of great news. Obviously I’ve been working a lot with Scott Jeffrey. He produced ‘Dinosaur Hotel,’ ‘War of The Monsters’ and ‘Dragon Fury,’ that were the features I filmed last year with him for Jagged Edge Productions.

Literally the best time, the most amazing quality of film, done so quickly, to such a high standard, and with the best cast & crew. The team is amazing and because of that I LOVE working with Scott.

I love to act, I love to be busy, so being able to do it with a great team is the extra shot in my mai tai.

So I’m absolutely delighted to have now been booked on 4 more feature films, the first one I film at the end of March, ‘Last Rite,’ and then I have one every month until May. (I couldn’t be more grateful. There’s just a magic about Scott’s sets and it’s great that he has a group of actors & crew that he uses and interchanges because we’ve all become really good friends, a family…which truly makes THE BEST kinda result!

I’m so excited to see everyone!

Plus, alongside that I’m currently working with Channel 4 Inclusion, with my good friend Colin, who I’ve known for years, who’s now head of C4 Inclusion!!! Amazing innit!!!

Diversity in Media means so so much to me, obviously with me being Asian AND Northern. So it’s such an honour to represent inclusion on television and film with Channel 4 and well I have a lil’ something coming up on March 11th!

Right I’ve rambled on now…other than all that, I’ve been binge watching ‘Bling Empire’ on Netflix & chatting to my very busy, yet wonderful friend Ryan..who I genuinely think the world of.

Ruby’s had a birthday, a lockdown birthday…and she’s now 10! I can’t believe that we made it to 10 in one piece. We had the most beautiful day and Junior loves spoiling his sister! (We did have to buy him an extra cake on the side to make him happy though. Haha. What? He’s the baby if Wunna land.) But yes, she was over the moon which made my heart melt. Their life has changed so much also! They’re both working and basically living their dream! I’m so proud!

What else? Oh! My friend Mel, was proposed to by her lovely Dave! When I read that text, I squealed with joy!!!! She deserves her ‘happy.’ In fact I nearly cried!!! I love her so much.
I’ve also been LOVING Zoom comedy nights on a Saturday with Russell Kane and Scott Mcgrane. It’s been a blast and helps Rethink mental illness, so life’s just been a blessing.
It was also ace to rechat to Ria Lina, who I completely adore. We have met previously and I’ve heard we’re about to meet again… So I’m forcing her to be my asian soul sister.

Other than that, it’s my best friend & celeb chef Ronnie Woo’s birthday today, I’m really looking forward to the Prince Harry & Meghan interview coming up, with Oprah! Conor Maynards mash ups are Amazing and I found this girl on TikTok that does the BEST most comforting asmr….So I’m now addicted to her soothiness!

Right I need a wine! You can ask me a question on my insta story or enjoy my new TikTok account.

Love you,
Chrissie x

Lockdown 3, Life & Cupid…

Well done! You’re surviving Lockdown 3, in one absolute alright piece! You’re a champ! I love you and things are gonna get better! There’s good days, bad days and well if your day has been anything like mine…there’s those fucking boring days, where time could not drag any slower & yet you can’t seem to find your ‘comfy’ place.

I’m kinda being a bit of a twat because I’m actually lucky enough to be Lunchmating it on ‘Steph’s Packed Lunch’ on Channel 4 throughout the WHOLE of ENTIRE lockdown. It’s the best daytime show on Earth to be part of (there’s a magic about it,) so I’m utterly grateful that 3 times a week I’m given the opportunity & joy to be able to leave lockdown life to work & entertain the masses via the fine art of television.

The thing is my work week is SO uplifting and filled with enjoyment that it flies by and you don’t really feel the ‘lockdown’ at all!

It’s like a ‘swirl’ and we all know I love a swirl. I get carried away in a swirl, be it in work or in romance. I live for the simple merry ‘swirl’ of life…the ‘feels.’ It excites me. I get carried away. I’m comfortable there.

Anyhow, when it comes to the weekend (when I return to the land of lockdown,) which is only a tiny stretch of actual days off… I’m still swirling on this magical adrenaline…this ‘high.’ Yet because time seems to stand so still and drag along, as slow as it can possibly drag….it’s hard to just chill and enjoy it, at first.

After a day of moaning, feeling sorry for myself and being hormonal, I managed to take some time to just relax and appreciate simplicity. Y’know be grateful for the small things that make me smile. It’s something that I always have in me, I’m the most thoughtful person, yet something that I have to be able to teach myself to go to when necessary. It’s in my ‘emotion toolbox.’ But I’ve got it now. I’m sorted!

‘Simplicity- Identify the essential. Eliminate the rest.’ Leo Babauta.’

I’m still failing at stuff though, even though life seems ace. I’m drinking non-alcoholic red wine right now, which is absolute sacrilege to the life of any decent human being. Plus, I’ve managed to bosh out 2 ‘wiggly bum’ videos for my socials. There WAS 3…but TikTok (who hates me) got rid of one as a violation. Lol. TikTok narks me off when it does this…I’ve already had my first account permanently banned because chicks and exes kept reporting it. I haven’t even done anything naughty. I’m just drawn playfully, with little Asian eyes…

Dudes seem to like it…Well 83% of them anyway. That’s my insta ‘audience’ men/women ratio. Only 16% of it is made up of chicks.

Now, I’m someone who thinks you should stick to your strengths and not feel forced to change if you’re whole heartedly content and at 40…I am. So I cater to my audience because I’m grateful that they’re there. I’m grateful for their love. Plus I enjoy entertaining them.

I don’t know why that irritates some folk? If you don’t like something, you don’t HAVE to watch it? Haha. I mean don’t repeatedly step into Wunna land if it makes you feel shitty. Simples! It’s just a bit of fun. Find yours! Embrace it! Love it! Feel free! Have a laugh!

On the acting front, I’ve had two feature films and a series pushed back to ‘later in the year’ and April due to the Covid restrictions.

Like I said before, I feel really lucky to have ‘Packed Lunch’ to go to right now. It keeps me sane and happy. It gives me a chance to still entertain!

The good thing is that when the pandemic is over I have films and projects to look forward to, straight out of lockdown. I’m feeling pretty good. I’m feeling pretty confident. The career’s going alright. It’s the best it could be right now, so I’m happy! The future still looks bright and I’m excited for it! (But don’t worry if your future feels like it isn’t feeling as bright…because everyone in entertainment is in the same boat! It’s not just you. Everything will go back to normal soon.)

Love life wise, not much is going on. I was chatting to someone…they were the last person I spoke to in 2020 and the first voicenote I heard in 2021. I liked him. I still do. Yet, he’s kinda drifted away…Guys do that don’t they. They sort of drift and return at a later date, when they’re feeling a little more refreshed. Lol.

That happens to me all of the time & right now I’m alright with that because we’re in lockdown and we’ll it’s hard to date! You can’t even seen the heart of your desire, or touch them or smell them. Let alone lay on the sofa with them, whilst you drink wine and giggle. Let ALONE enjoy naughty moments. You can’t establish something properly, can you, until you get to do that!

I’m old school. I love romance. Getting use to cyber valentine vibes, is difficult.

I’m gonna have the worst Valentine’s Day aren’t I! Haha. Gosh! Here I am! 40. Single. Yet weirdly with an inbox full of dms, requesting love, sex and marriage, from various gents from all around the world. Well…some are gents…some are just horny.

I mean I must get asked out about 97 times a day. I ignore them all, then moan because I can never find true love. Haha.

I’m a proper love bunny, so i’m cautious. I have to trust that it’s gonna be okay, before I start catapulting myself into any more heartache. If I fall in love, I fall head over heels in love and well this time around… I just wanna make sure it’s right, they’re right and that it’s long term. I don’t wanna make a bad choice and look stupid again. I’ve learnt everything the hard way in love.

But hey ho! At least the careers going well! 😉

See you on Insta! You can ask me a question everyday on my story! @chrissiewunna

Films, Telly & Catch ups

Okay! So, I don’t even know where I was up to with life? It’s been AGES since I’ve had time to blog…so I don’t know how far I’ve got with you? I haven’t even checked to see what the last blog was about? Hahah. Yet, when I can’t blog and I’m having to catch you up, do know that I class that as a good thing! I’m really thankful (especially after the drama of 2020, to be working so much in entertainment.) It’s almost like my life is changing every single day, but for the better & we know it hasn’t always been that way. I’ve had to really work hard for everything I have and everything I am. But what I’ve learnt at 39 is that having to learn everything the hard way, has truly served me well, as it’s made ne tremendously grateful for every little moment. So when it cones to finally being able to paddle in my ‘happy place,’ I look back and see everything I’ve been through (I even flash back to my Hollywood days) and in a way it makes me value & treasure every tiny, little achievement I’ve accidentally or purposely made…because it didn’t come easy.

Every day I wake up and I never know what’s in store, but then I sort of ‘blink,’ and all of a sudden, out of nowhere a little miracle has swirled my way. I don’t even know why or how so many wonderful things are happening? But gosh, I’m beaming…I’m trying my best to do ‘Wunna land’ proud.

But enough of that… right now, I’m in my bendy rollers, I’m chilling in my Japanese kimono. I have a 0% Heineken by my side. I’ve just posted my ‘Tricky Challenge’ tiktoks on Mubarak Insta feed. Ruby has a Stilton and crackers. Junior has a pizza. …and I’m resting up for another delightful episode of ‘Steph’s Packed Lunch,’ as I’m in the studio, lunch mating both tomorrow AND Friday…on Channel 4 (12:30)

Code for ‘Watch it.’ Lol

On my last blog, I think I’d just wrapped on a film? Was it ‘Stained Canvas.’ It must’ve have been? Anyway, since then life gallopped and went full speed ahead. The nation went into lockdown and well it didn’t even touch my sides, simply because I SO GRATEFULLY working through the whole entire thing.

Since my last blog I’ve filmed two whole feature films with ‘Jagged Edge Productions.’ Just AMAZING! That’s all I can even say.

I played lead characters in both films. ‘Sienna Woods’ in ’Dinosaur Hotel’ & ‘May Steel’ in ‘War of the Monsters.’ Both Ruby and Junior aka ‘The Wunna Babies’ were in the films also…and well, what can I say, other than working with ‘Jagged Edge’ has been out of this world, incredible.

I mean Scott (producer…he cast me, so I love him lol) and Rhys worked so so hard and I’ve never in my life filmed two features, back to back, so QUICKLY, that look as phenomenal as they do!

The cinematography is insane! The scripts are exciting! The talent within the cast was top notch. The crew & Director ‘Jack Mundy’ smashed it..I mean even the turn overs of the films are going at the speed of light and they’re of ‘First class’ quality.

We all just worked as hard as we could…to bring the two stories and the characters to life and hopefully that will radiate through the films.

I can’t wait to see them. I think they release Summer 2021.

More than anything I’m really grateful to be working with Scott…and I look forward to doing as many movies as possible with him!

I’ve met a really great team and some truly great actors…So i’m in! It’s an absolute joy to be part of their ‘magic.’

I feel so lucky.

So yeah, those two films wrapped at the end of November and straight away I was back at Channel 4, on ‘Steph’s Packed Lunch’ lunch mating.

In the time that I had been cast in both Scott’s films, I had also become a regular lunch mate on ‘Packed Lunch’ so it’s just been all GO!

It’s wonderful!

It’s almost like I’m getting the best of both worlds!

I’m an actor, so I get to go away and bring the most amazing characters to life for that good old silver screen. Then at the same time, once I’m all wrapped, I get to shimmie back into the fun & wonderfully glitzy studio, for Channel 4, at the Leeds Docks and go make daytime telly via the form of banter & lunch with Steph! Not to mention a conga line of absolutely ace, tv talent. (I mean, I get to have people like Russell Kane teach me how to be funny. John Waite teach me how to cook and Anton Du Beke teach my brain cells how to work. Haha.

It’s just bliss…and I’m glad to be making history and making those oh so important memories.

It’s all we’re doing in this little thing called life really….and it’s beautiful.

So to catch you all up! I’m on Steph’s Packed Lunch, 12:30, channel 4…on both Thursday (tomorrow) AND Friday.

Friday is my LAST show for 2020, (don’t worry I’m booked back on for Jan) as I will be heading off to go film ANOTHER feature film m with Jagged Edge Productions called ‘Dragon Fury.’ I play ‘Nicole Folland’ a mountaineer.

I head off on Dec 14th and get back on Dec 22nd, just in time for Christmas.

I actually headed to snowy, cold mountains to film…AND I have a birthday (my 40th) whilst I’m there. I’m really excited! It’s gonna be ACE!

So anyway, there’s a lot going on…

I’ll try and tell you my story more often.

I love you all very dearly and I thank you all so much for your constant support.

I’ll leave you with this.. lol



Life is just ACE, right now…

Heeelllllooooooo! If you’re in the UK, I hope you’re enjoying lockdown 2! It is what it is! But if I’m being honest, it doesn’t feel as bad this time around? Does it to you? It’s almost like we’ve got this! Like we’ve been there, done that and bought all the bloody toilet roll, to wipe the bums of every single human, in all the beautiful land!

I’m actually quite busy, so I’m feeling so utterly lucky and so wonderfully blessed! I’m working, I’m happy & The Wunna Babies, Ruby & Junior are brimming over with excitement!

We loved bonfire night. We nearly burnt the house down. I tried to make a bonfire toffee tart, but my acrylic nail fell off and burnt into it. The tortoise got scared. Junior wanted to set fire to everything. Ruby decided to be scared of the 62 sparklers that I bought and just like that, the BEST memories EVER, were made!

It was definitely nuts!! So I made sure that I posted a sultry-ish video of me, play dancing around with a sparkler in my hand…to music…just so everyone thought we were calm & normal. 🙂 I love fire. It calms me. So I thought I was sending out ‘good vibes.’ Then Tiktok removed my video for posting ‘dangerous acts.’


It’s a sparkler in my hand on bonfire night? Not a donkey being shot out of a bloody fiery cannon!

I’m about to start filming a feature film, ‘Dinosaur Hotel,’ followed by ANOTHER feature film, back to back…and I couldn’t be MORE grateful to have given such a fantastically lucky opportunity! The scripts are great! I’m so excited. Yet more than anything…just so grateful to the team at Jagged Edge Productions!

AND Ruby & Junior have been written into BOTH movies tooooooo, so my heart has skipped a beat with delight, as Scott (at Jagged Edge) has literally gone above & beyond to make filming…life…and just EVERYTHING so much easier on little ‘single mum’ me!

I’m really thankful!!

I’m now also a regular ‘lunch mate’ On ‘Steph’s Packed Lunch,’ 12:30 weekdays, on Channel 4.

It’s literally THE MOST refreshingly fun, daytime chat show on telly! It’s wild, it’s alive and it’s just one of those shows that makes you smile. It’s filmed in Leeds, Yorkshire, it’s full of accents, celebrity guests and current news.

It’s an absolute BLAST!! One of those shows where you can just BE, without airs, graces or worry, whilst feeling adored and accepted! There’s no judgements and it represents everyone!

It’s a true laugh and everyone on set is honestly having the most remarkable time! It’s a buzz. So I’m honoured to be part of the hoopla! I’ve done a lot of tv and I’ve been on a lot of sets and there’s a ‘magic’ to this set! As soon as I walk in, an hour and a bit before the live show, I feel at home! I love it!!!

I’m back on tomorrow (Wednesday Nov 11th) so please do tune in and enjoy the show! It’s so much fun! 12:30, weekdays…Channel 4.

So yeah, it’s all go right now! The kids have their last day of school tomorrow, before they head off for filming, to be lil’ mini movie stars. (They’re so excited.) We will be away filming the moving.

I’m on ‘Packed Lunch’ around filming the feature films, and I just can’t wait to start on ‘Dinosaur Hotel.’ I play ‘Sienna Woods’ and she’s the lead female! So I have a lot to challenge myself with…which makes me smile! (I love a juicy role.)

Everyone thought that I’d gone quiet on my ‘socials,’ but I haven’t…there’s just been a whole lot of script to learn and absorb! But I’ve done it! Plus, I have to help the babies learn their lines also!

Oh! And I found out today that’s I’m gonna be American in the second feature film! So it’s again, gonna feel so wonderful to work hard and be challenged. There’s just that great sense of achievement once you’ve mastered it! It’s almost euphoric!

So yeah…basically everything’s ace!

I’m meeting some really amazing people at work right now also!

I’m happy!

Tune into ‘Steph’s Packed Lunch’ tomorrow 12:30, channel 4! Tweet me or insta me, whilst ya watching…and i’ll Show you some love! 🙂

Right! I’ve godda go! I’ve got to plonk bendy rollers in my hair for tomorrow!

Big kisses!

This was my morning workout on insta..

Enjoy! Lol

Halloween, Life & New Excitement

Happy Monday!!! It took me a jazzy bit to get started this morning. But I got there!! So, we’re all good!

I hope you all had the most amazing Halloween! In Wunna Land, the babies & I kinda like to celebrate everything. So the spooky vibes certainly weren’t cancelled for us. When it comes to making childhood memories for Ruby & Junior, I just try my best to make as many as possible, that are just filled with deliciously, fruitful good times!

We threw our own mini Halloween party at home, instead of going out trick-or-treating and well the snack table was whipped out! Now, if the snack table is whipped out, at any point during your time in Wunna Land…it means shit is going down. (Good shit. Lol) The kids loved it. I loved it! It was just absolute bliss! Another memory made!

I always feel as though, if I create all these wonderful times, that they can reflect upon when they’re older and LIVE through whilst they’re present…THEN when I keel over and die (unfortunately NOT from too much rum *She weeps* ) they’ll treasure me and remember me as THE greatest Mama they could ever have. THE greatest woman they could ever know. (I mean, that’s how i see my Mum.)

I was an ‘Egyptian Sex-Slave’ for Halloween! 🙂 I was initially gonna be grapes. But then my good friend AND celebrity chef Ronnie Woo, told me how difficult it is to actually BE grapes. So I tossed it off…because if HE found it hard, then I’ve have absolutely ZERO chance at achieving such madness.

Strangely enough, lol…you all LOVED my shot at being an ‘Egyptian sex-slave?’ I had this mad infiltration of teenage boys, ski sloping into my DM’s all begging me to love them…the only way an ‘Egyptian sex-slave’ would know how?

I’m 39. Infact 40, in December. I don’t want a teenage boyfriend EVER. Even as a teenager, I didn’t want a teenage boyfriend. Haha. Plus, I’m NOT A REAL LIFE ‘Egyptian Sex-Slave.’ Lol. It was Halloween? I’m a playful, Asian mum of two.

Then….after the teenager dm slides, came a cluster of submissive, male sex-slaves who wanted me to be their ‘Dom.’

I’ve accidentally posted Ronnie’s DM again…below…and I can’t for the life of me figure out how to delete it? Haha. FFS!!!

Anyway…lots of excitement with the ‘Egyptian vibes’ and it was fun! I loved it. I felt sexy and playful. It was just sooo…me! I felt alive, gentle, yet powerful.

I sent Ryan his OWN 1st take of the video, before it went ‘live,’ which he didn’t at all see, until AFTER I’d posted a different ‘take’ on my profile.

Everyone keeps asking me what video HE got. Well…he just got his own. It was mild. Practically only 1% naughtier than the actual ‘for everyone’ video. I didn’t have time to make it ‘extra’ delicious, simply because the bloody door knocked and a delivery guy had the new last minute, school blazers, that I ordered for the kids. Hahaha.

I opened the door as a flipping ‘Egyptian Sex-Slave.’ He smiled….lingered in thought…Then as he walked away, he looked back… blissfully. I just waved, smiled and slammed the door shut. Lol. What? I’m Yorkshire. I’m sure there’s a fee for a lingering peek. Haha.

So, I’ve just wrapped on a short film ‘Stained Canvas,’ by the wonderful Jayne Slater and I’m gonna be briefly telling you about my time on set, in my next blog. That way it doesn’t get mixed up with sexy stuff. Haha. But the film is incredible. I’m so grateful to have been part of it! I’d work for that team over & over again! Absolutely SUPERB!

That’s to come though…

Straight after I wrapped…the next day, we had our first full cast red through for the second series of ‘A Series of Light.’

Oh my GOD! The script is insane!!! I obviously can’t you anything about it. No spoilers here!!! 🙂 However, I’m LUCKY & HONOURED to playing ‘Detective Jackie Lambert.’ I live for her and it was so good to read with everyone and meet them virtually. The story is insane. It’s gripping. It’s dark. It’s alive! Written by Gage Oxley & Jess Redhead.

The first season is currently running on Amazon Prime. So go check it out. ‘A Series of light.’ It’s a phenomenal series and the talent is mind blowing! They go places were lots of actors darent go…and Bruce’s monologue in ‘Limelight’ is out of this world.

I’m in the sequel to ‘Red Light,’ Which is ‘Street light.’ (So me. Lol.)

Go watch the First series. Enjoy it.

At the end of this month the kids and I are booked to film ’Dinosaur Hotel’ a new feature film. So I hope that all goes ahead…because I’m so so excited. Yet, I don’t know whether ‘Lockdown 2’ is gonna cause any problems? (If you’re not from the UK, just so you know, we’re headed back into Lockdown for the second time, this Thursday!)

I should be stressed about it, but there’s no point. I’m just getting on with it merrily.

This morning my mum & I ‘B&M’med it. (My predictive text wanted to change that to ‘bummed.’ Haha.)

Sometimes we have these urges, where we’ll just look at one another and know we need to go to B&M and just buy anything and everything!

I went in for sparklers. I came out with £55’s worth of all sorts and a candy floss making machine??? Haha.

God knows what she bought? But we were certainly delighted!

When I got home I had a self tape audition. So i boshed that out and just as I ‘hit’ the button to end filming…my phone started ringing!

As soon as I looked at the number on my screen…I knew who it was and immediately my entire body filled up with glee!

‘Hi, is that Chrissie..?’

‘Oh my god!!! It IS…YES!’

And just like that…on Wednesday I’m on your telly!

Life is GOOD! All these crazy, amazing things keep happening to me, out of the blue!!!

When life is on your side….

I feeling really good today! So many wonderful things are happening. I’m in a great mood and I think it’s because a lot of ‘do gooding’ is currently occurring in Wunna land. It’s crazy! But the actual ‘buzz’ that I’m getting from making people smile, doing something to help others, changing the world a wiggle at a time & giving back…is making me feel on top of the world. I’m feel like some kind of ultra gleeful, superhero of boujiness.

It’s great!

Right okay, so…work wise, I start filming the most amazing short film ‘Stained Canvas’ next week! I could not be more excited to bring ‘Lily’ the bohemian fashion designer to life & I can’t wait to work with Jayne Slater, who’s an award winning, young film maker!

I’ve also just watched and shared the new promo video for ‘Isolation The Series 2’ by Steve Leeds and I can’t wait to be a part of that! It’s such an innovative series.

I’m in a feature film that shoots November. It has dinosaurs in it. The Wunna babies are in the film also and well I cannot wait to work with Scott Jeffery and Jagged Edge Productions. They’re a great team. A strong team.

And finally, I’ve joined the cast of ‘Series of Light’ season 2 on Amazon Prime UK & US and we’re set to film by the end of the year. I can’t wait to sass about as DC Jackie Lambert. (The character name alone gets me going!! Thank you Gage Oxley & Jessica Redhead.)

So…you’ve got all that!

In the meantime, whilst I’ve been learning my lines…a lot of you will know that on Friday Nov 20th I’m gonna be giving up my bed and sleeping rough to raise funds and build awareness for the charity ‘End Youth Homelessness,’ (who provide support and accommodation for young homeless people between the ages of 16-25.

I only just started pushing it and promoting it not last night but the night before…because I’d been so busy. I had a target of £100 because for every £100 I make in funds, it provides a young homeless person with FOUR nights warm & safe accommodation this Christmas!!!

Thanks to YOU my just giving campaign began trending over night and in 2 days I’d not only hit my target fund goal, but doubled it.

I cannot thank you enough for your support. It means so much to me, honestly from the bottom of my heart. Plus, it’s kinda special to know that during these hard times people ARE still wanting to give and make things better for others.

I feel the love. I feel the support and I truly appreciate it. Words can’t describe how wonderful your help has made me feel. Like you, I’m human and have been through many hard times. I’ve always tried not to talk about them, simply because I’m a ‘take it on the glitzy chin’ kinda girl. My inner ‘Northern’ gives me that ‘tough as old boots’ vibe. Plus, I always wanted to whizz a more positive vibe out there.

Yet realistically, there’s nothing MORE positive than someone’s TRUTH and someone who can TELL THEIR STORY without shame, with the intention to inspire and with a non-alcoholic smile on their face. (I hate that I’m not or drinking right now. I want pina coladas….strong ones…. slide down an imaginary bar at me, so I can erotically sniff them.)


The money you’ve helped raise so far for my ‘Sleep Out’ campaign will now help provide TWO young homeless people with safe and warm accommodation this Christmas! (They’re off the dangerous streets and that settles my heart. It makes me smile!)

I’m over the moon. I’m actually looking forward to sleeping rough for the night. I’m gonna try and document it all, if I can. But let’s keep the excitement going and get as many children and young adults into a safe place for Christmas! I mean, there’s young single mums out there, on the streets…with their kids, trying to fend for themselves! They need help and we can help them. There’s should be no barriers….just that good old thing called love.

So please do please do find it in your heart to donate…Even just £1 makes a huge difference! I mean sending video messages and signed pics to everyone who donates. You can even win a virtual date!!! Donate at the link below:


So, I had a bunch of ‘Zoom’ meetings today, one after the other…and I sent out quite a lot of emails and press releases out. Ruby had an audition and Junior ate baguettes on the street, whilst we were practicing ‘just sitting and being glared at’ and finding good homeless ‘sleepy’ spots on our after school walk.

But earlier this morning I found a REALLY amazing organisation @SCCCC (@Sheffield 4C) whilst I was on Twitter posting my ‘Fifty Shades’ video. Lol.

Anyway, they have a Penpal Scheme where people like you & I write letters or draw pictures etc…(The idea is that it’s ‘Happy Mail.)

You then send your letters/paintings to them and they have it delivered to various isolated old people within the community, who may not have ANY family or friends, simply to make them smile, feel appreciated, let them know that’s the thought of and well it helps combat loneliness.

How lovely!!!!

It made me immediately flash back to a time…years ago…when I worked in a coffee shop. A cheeky gentleman named ‘Albert’ used to always come in. He was loud, flirty and naughty.

He always use to crack the lost hilariously inappropriate jokes. One day he walked in…But he looked so sad. I asked him what the matter was…He simply looked at me and quietly said…

‘You don’t want to ever be 80. It’s the loneliest time.’

He then walked away…It just never left me. It’s one of my flash backs. I wonder why we hold onto some flash backs, but not others? Why does our brain choose certain moments? Or is it our soul that does the selecting?

Therefore with that’s being said ‘Wunna Land’ went into action. I was full, speed ahead and began hand washing, sanitising and then grabbing paper to write as many letters as I could.

The babies (Ruby & Junior) then joined in on the action and started drawing and painting their ‘happy mail,’ to send off.

So far we have 50 pieces of ‘Happy Mail’ to make anyone who is feeling lonely smile!

What a BUZZ!

It’s been such a delight to do them and take part in the Penpal scheme and well i think YOU should too because it feels so rewarding. It’s just so easy. It’s a great thing to do as a family and it takes nothing to just write one happy letter or paint one happy picture! It will make an old person smile and feel appreciated! That’s all you have to do!

Anyway, I’ve noticed that whilst a delightful amount of ‘do gooding’ and giving back to others is happening, a great deal of pretty wonderful things keep happening TO ME!?!

Now, I don’t know whether it’s because i feel good, or whether it’s because the karma thing is the real deal? But I’m kinda genuinely noticing that if you give out love, it really does come back to your threefold. (No joke.) I’m watching it happen to me, over and over again!

If I wasn’t so tired, I’d definitely be having an imaginary rum right now! Why am I so old?

All my love,

Chrissie x

Ps/ I’ll leave you with this. I mean, I filmed it so you might as well watch it. Lol (Infact, you’ve probably already seen it, it’s been chilling on my insta for a day..)

And just like that…

I’m laid on the ‘sunshine bed’ with my red kimono draped upon me, with golden, collagen, gel patches under my eyes. 🙂 I also have olive coloured joggers on underneath the kimono, JUST to make me feel like the world is a safer place. The under eye, gel patches are apparently ‘lavender’ infused. I’m not sure why I’ve tried to make my eyes all relaxed and sleepy, to THEN attempt to write a blog? I’ve stuck them on my forehead now.

But anyway, I was in ‘Zoom’ court this morning at 10am. I’m not gonna go into it because I’ve been tinkering through the rather un-glamorous court bushes for over a year now. However today I was rewarded with peace and good old justice. It all went well! I have utter happiness in my heart. I’m really grateful because I had a lot of support. I’m tremendously thankful to all those who helped and well I’m lucky enough to have had THE BEST barrister, the most phenomenal representation EVER, who was Lorena Veale at KBW Chambers. (If you ever need a barrister & you are Leeds-ish based, she IS your ‘go to.’

Anyway, as you may know, I was a little stressed last night. Not openly stressed, more internally concerned….which to me is almost worse. Lol. There were moments where I’d crouch on the floor, with my hands over my face and just sigh, whilst uttering the word ‘shit’ on a slow repeat, simply to ease out some air. Lol

I couldn’t sleep. I kept looking at phone and worrying as time ticked by. I didn’t want it to go intonations the early hours. I kept drinking my non alcoholic beer…for no reason, because it really didn’t help at all. It just gave me something to do, in the dark… to pass that ticking time.

Then just when i was feeling like utter shit and throwing pity party or two…my phone blinked and a DM had come through to my insta.

It was 11.20pm

Scott Jeffery: ‘Hey! 🙂 How far are you from this area?’

(Followed by a screenshot of a giant house, situated in a West Yorkshire village.)

And just like that I saved ‘The Gods.’

Five DMs later…I had joined the cast of a movie, so had Ruby & Junior, by November we’re filming and it even has DINOSAUR’s in it!!!!

I cannot wait it!!!!

Now, I’d been wanting to work with Scott for a while. I auditioned for a role in a feature that he was producing, a couple weeks ago…Since then I’d been watching everything that he, his colleagues, his actors and the companies he had been aligned without in absolute awe. I watched everything they were doing on their ‘socials’ and I was amazing. It was so creatively alive. It was positively astounding. I wanted in!

Last night, 5 DMs in after 11.20pm my dream came true and I cannot even tell you how’s it changed my mood around! I was SO happy, that my entire body filled up with a ‘joie de vivre,’ a rush that only a combination of happiness & excitement could ever conjour.

I felt amazing!!! I was literally jumping around my room, in my rescue kimono, IN the fucking dark, doing happy dances!

It reminded that my life was alright and that I had so much more to be excited about!! It reminded me to refrain from letting fear & negativity, be my focus. It’s shit. It’s not the right vibe.

Last night proved that within seconds and out of the blue, a single moment…a simple dm at 11.20pm…can absolutely CHANGE your vibe, your life or your future. This is no joke, it really can. It did!!! I lived it!

It was the most wonderful feeling. So wonderful that no words can describe how I felt, in that moment. It was such a high, after feeling that little low. That case of worry.

(You shouldn’t worry, it’s not good for you. It prevents good things from fluttering your way.)

This morning when I woke the kids up, it wasn’t dreary. I had envisioned it being dreary and filled with fake smiles, which they see through, instantly. Well…Ruby does. She may say nothing, but she’ll feel everything. (She’s so in tune with Wunna land. She’s…well…she’s the natural heir to the throne. Lol)

Anyway….this morning…

It wasn’t ‘don’t think about Mama & court today, just enjoy school.’

It was… ‘Babies, you’re gonna be in a movie. You get to travel away to set and there’s dinosaurs in it! 🙂 ‘

A sense of giddy, happiness swirled around Wunna land last night….just in the nick of time. It glided through our morning, as the sun rose.

It rebuilt a confidence in my soul, a confidence that I already had and at 11.02am, fresh out of my ‘Zoom’ court hearing, life went back to normal.

I’m one happy kitten…

Roll on tomorrow. 🙂

(Ryan experienced ‘Porn Monday’ today…so i’m sure he’s delighted also. Lol.)

There’s just so much…

Happy Sunday. I never know what I’m gonna write, until I write it. So here goes…

I’ve had a chilled week off. It’s a week I needed off because i’d been working so hard. I’d also been hustlin’ and the ones of you who do it, will know that although positive, it can be exhausting. You either get somewhere or nowhere at all! However, I don’t think hitting a few brick walls is bad for you. There’s also some kinda lesson learnt and it’s thise lessons that make you!

I have an important day tomorrow. It’s kind of a ‘big day.’ It was actually meant to be much bigger. Yet for me emotionally…it’s big enough. So over the weekend I’ve insisted on just being calm and having chilled out fun with my family. (Ruby, Junior & my Mama.) We’ve been out and about in my home town (Doncaster ) just shopping, lunching, Pumpkin Carving and just keeping things simple. It’s been absolutely wonderful. Just seeing how happy the babies were melted my heart! They’re my everything! I mean, I’m certainly sure wobbling around a market place, with two giant pumpkins in my arms, in leopard print, heels and a face mask…as the babies sang and skipped around next to me, was definitely a sight for the loony bin. But it was worth it! It made us all so happy! I’ve loved my weekend and without joy you have absolutely nothing!

I’d say it’s important to me to keep things simple. I hate it when people come in and complicate everything. Or when people place drama, problems or complications ABOVE ease, solutions and well…the art of simplicity. (I look for that in all areas of my life…work, family, general living and in men. I don’t like ‘drama’ men. They go against my natural grain.)

Anyway, this week has been a funny week?

I’m not good at having time off. I find it difficult. I’ve been uncomfortable spiritually and mentally. It stresses me out.

I’m also not great at feeling like I’m not succeeding. I put a lot of pressure on myself & I shouldn’t.

Time off…for some reason makes me feel like I’m not doing well enough or trying hard enough…which isn’t at all the case? I have great balance. Right now I seem to be doing everything right. I’m good. The kids couldn’t be happier. I’m mostly happy. Lol. The career’s alright. There’s nothing for me to be exceptionally worried about? Maybe my ‘tomorrow’ is concerning me internally.

Regardless & realistically there’s nothing to stress out about.

When you are stressed out about something I believe you should feel it, as in submerge yourself in it. Say it out loud, so you can hear it too. Then you’ll definitely feel like shit for a moment…but then you’ll ACCEPT it, understand it, comes to terms with it and it’s then when you’ll start to feel better & beable to baby step forward.

I don’t know why I sometimes stress out about things? I mean doesn’t stress grow from fear? I’m not really scared of too much?

But when’s it comes to life, I believe that you get what’s meant for you. You’re exactly where you’re meant to be. There’s a whole big picture for you & you’ll understand it as you go. The things that aren’t truly yours, will NEVER be yours…and no matter how hard you try. Yet sometimes, you hardly have to try at all and just because something was MEANT for you… it materialises into your actual reality and becomes a part of your story. Almost like magic!

I’ve experienced both. That’s how I know it’s true.

I’ve had a very colourful past, which has made me worry a lot about things, because I know how uneasy life can turn out. Lol.

Yet, at the same time it has also transformed me into the most relaxed and most confident human being alive. It’s odd that it’s done both? I feel invincible sometimes because I’m a survivor and there’s nothing I can’t handle because I’ve been through so so much. ( God! I wish you could just see into my head and watch my life flash back at you. Only THEN you’d understand.)

But there’s a humility to me, that’s grounding. I’ve always been a good person. I’m raised well. Even through the shit bits, I’ve always still been a good person at heart. However, I never thought that I’d actually grow WISER as I got older. But I have!!! Haha! I’m truly astonished!!! Fair enough it took me nearly 40 years…Yet, who’s counting, I’m getting there! That’s all that matters.

Today’s actually been great! I’m ready for tomorrow! Plus, I recieved exciting emails and messages, that got me juiced!

I start filming ‘Stained Canvas’ on the 27th and can’t wait! It’s again one of those great films. As soon as I read the script, I knew! It’s written & directed by Jayne Slater & her sense of creativity, style and film making is beautiful. I’m really honoured to be part of this story. (I was kinda worried because of a potential ‘Lockdown 2,’ which is shit for those in entertainment. Yet it seems that all is well and we can go ahead with the filming. I don’t have to get a job in ‘Cyber.’ 🙂 Lol. I’m excited!)

Then I scrolled down my emails & I saw it…The email of all emails! ‘Street light’ of ‘Series of Light’ is now at final draft & cast reads are happening this month! I’m absolutely delighted! It’s all incredibly exciting! I feel so lucky to have joined the cast for the second series! I’m a huge fan of the show and well…now… I’m in it! 🙂 Gage has really done a tremendous job! There’s just something about this….I can feel it!

I’m currently laid in bed, in the dark in my kimono, writing this on my phone, which is the only light on the room. Junior’s laid asleep next to me because he can never sleep alone. Tomorrow is a big day for him also. I feel for him. It’s awful. Soon it’ll all be over and we can all live happily with the stability and joy that we deserve.

I’m meant to be doing my Q&A on my insta story right now, but I don’t know if I want to yet? Lol. I love all my questions. There’s sometimes some really great ones. But then my DM’s fill up quickly…and it fills up with men, guys, strangers, who fancy a shot at the old ‘Glamour Puss.’

I can’t go through them because there’s too many. Yet I always find it so strange when guys slide straight in with a suggestion that I ‘excite’ them, that they feel all horny and I’ve made parts of their anatomy stand to attention.

That’s not the correct way to try and win my heart. I’m not stimulated like that. I’m sensual. I’m love sex. I’m in tune with my sexuality & when I’m in a relationship ‘the bedroom’ is a place I adore.

Yet if a guy thinks a DM slide with ‘I’m horny,’ is gonna make me fall at his knees because he thinks I’m hot…then he’s stupid & it’s the sheer stupidity of such, that will turn me off.

I also don’t like it when guys read this and then think they’re smart and throw in a ‘it’s your personality I love’ line… lol. Again, I’m not that stupid. I can see through people really fast. I can tell when they’re not being themselves. I can tell when they think I’m stupid. I’m so experienced at this that I could write 94 books on it, backwards…on a donkey. Lol

I’m a romantic. A hopeless one. I love, love. I love falling in love and being loved. I get the ‘sexy’ thing. I like it. I’m flattered. But if a guy really wanted to win my heart wouldn’t they do it properly…They’d be more balanced than just ‘dick.’ I like balance.

Plus, it’s hard 😉 right now because I have a crush. The Ryan crush. There’s nothing about Ryan that I don’t like & i’ve actually had quite a lot of time to get to know him…which never usually happens. Circumstance has actually forced us to get to know each other in this particular way. But I like it! It’s not bad. I wouldn’t get to know as well otherwise.

But he’s really genuine and kind. He’s funny. He’s also wise…and i like that. I love a dollop of wisdom.

This is why I shouldn’t have a week off because I start to think about things…

It’s 23.07 UK time. In the morning…I have court.

‘B’ is for Busy…

I haven’t written in ages. Has it been a month? I dunno? But life has been busy. Kinda like a whirl of hard work, excitement, achievement, entertainment, motherhood, life and…I guess, I’d say hope?

I work so hard TO BE busy! Then when I ‘get busy’ I panic until I’ve fully accomplished the task with flying colours and my heart in one happy piece. Over time i’ve become an expert at avoiding ‘distraction,’ however it may flounce into Wunna land. I’ve learnt everything the hard way, but right now, I’m ridiculously focused and I say it’s about bloody time at 39 years old! 😉

People grow at different times, on different levels and in different ways. But i’m in the game. I ‘is’ here and I ‘is’ alive.

They say if you’re well, happy & loved, then you have everything you could ever need in life.

Since the last time I spoke to you, I’ve self taped (auditioned) or Zoom auditioned probably twice a day? It’s been a really great time. Really busy!

I booked a feature film, ‘Charlotte,’ (there’s been quite a buzz about it online.) I filmed it a couple weeks ago in a cottage, in the most remote part of the North Yorkshire Dales. But oh my gosh, it was MORE than worth it. I’ll tell you all about it, as I go along, especially when it screens. Yet, to have worked with such outstanding talent, Georgia Conlan, Dean Kilbey (they lead the film) & Martin Hardwick (D.O.P) well, it was an absolute blessing! It’s such a dark, gripping tale, a psychological thriller and it will change your perspective on life. When this film releases, everyone is going to be astonished.

I looked back at some of the scenes in the cottage and it’s just ‘first class’ and I’m so grateful to be part of such a wonderful story. Every single person gave it their all. Everyone single person made everyone else on set feel of worth. I’ve actually ‘wrapped’ on it now, but they’re still filming… so as the days go on, i’ll tell you about some of my ‘behind the scenes’ moments on set. 🙂

I read today that over 2000 people had auditioned for roles in the film and 16 were ‘hand picked.’ I always forget how many actors audition for roles. I feel very lucky! It was an absolute honour to work with such a remarkable team.

What else as happened? The Wunna Babies, Ruby & Junior, they’ve both been auditioning like the clappers. They’re booking quite a lot and just the other day they worked their first music video, which they loved.

I’m really really proud of them right now and not because they’re working so hard. They’re only 9 & 7. But because no matter what they go through in life, the good and the bad, they always remain so grounded, so positive, they stay close to one another and appreciate everything. They’re so thoughtful.

Over the last few weeks I’ve worked so much, I can’t even begin to go over everything all at once. I’m grateful! But I need to tell you the stories as I tinker onward because everything’s just moving so fast! (I don’t even have time to watch my favourite Netflix shows, which is truly DEVASTATING!!! The good thing is that I also don’t have time to stress out. That’s always a bonus.)

I had a Zoom audition on Friday for a Channel 4 show. I think it went well? I don’t know? I hope so? I’d really like to be a part of it, so we’ll see whether it’s meant for me? I always think your stories already written and whatever so meant to happen will just flipping happen.

My ‘milkshake’ still seems to be bringing all the boys to my yard? I don’t know how? But I’m flattered. I’ll remember all this when I’m 80. Hopefully i’ll Be back to drinking lots by then, so I can’t have a laugh about it all. Oh and when I say ‘yard,’ I mean my ‘social media’ yard, as during times of ‘focus,’ I don’t let boys creep any way further past the cyber line. Lol. Well, unless it’s Ryan. He can pretty much do whatever he wants because he’s ace. I’m kinda in ‘awe’ of his aceness.

But anyway, I’m working really hard. I’m looking through ‘wardrobe’ for my next film ‘Stained Canvas,’ by Jayne Slater. I play bohemian fashion designer ‘Lily’ and I just cant wait! We hopefully start filming this month. I’ve done a couple virtual rehearsals and reads…so alls good! Just plonk me in my boho outfit and i’m good to go!

For the rest of the year…

I have a Netflix pilot and 2 features for now to work on. I did the ‘Casting Me Comp’ today for Do or Die Studios. I had a day off and i wanted to use it wisely!

I think I get my ‘Series of Light’ script soon! Being part of this series has got me good! I can’t even describe my levels of excitement and I’m playing ‘Detective Jackie Lambert.’ I LOVE IT!!! The first series is on Amazon Prime UK & US…So you must watch it! I think the book of unseen scripts is out also!

Basically, lots is going on….this was just a catch up blog. I always say I’m gonna write a blog every day from this point, don’t i? Then work flies on in…and I forget to prioritise this little diary of love…and I shouldn’t.

I keep ‘flash backing’ to about 15 years ago, when my LA neighbour ‘Cletus’ poured tea on our shared balcony and told me to hand write a daily diary…

I’ll tell you about it all tomorrow.

I love you lots!

Chrissie x

The most beautiful times…

So much is happening!!! This blog was meant to be a Q&A ‘diddly-pop,’ so you have my sincerest apologies. However, within days, i’ll tell you that such wonderfully, blissful, blessings decided sprinkled into my life and all over the grounds of Wunna land. Completely out of nowhere. So I had to ‘write out’ to simply let off some ‘wow-steam,’ as I call it. That way I don’t get overwhelmed or mistakenly mighty. Lol.

But this week, is the week that I realised my life was changing…and I can actually say for the better. 🙂 (And breeeeeathe.)

We’re already in September. That sneaked up on us, didn’t it? It’s currently 5.56am. I’ve been up since 4.53am. My room’s a calming kinda dark, with a pale blue light hazing, in as the day dawns around us.

The numbers ‘5,’ ‘15,’ then ‘45,’ repeatedly flashed up in my dreams last night…well this morning. I’ve already looked them up! Alls good. I must always been surrounded by guardian angels are something? I always dream of numbers, when I’m going through things in my life.

Okay! If you’re following my ‘socials,’ you’ll know I’ve been busy. I still am busy. I have a short and two feature films that I’m learning lines for (I’m ever so grateful for the opportunities that I’m currently been given) and this week I’m just SO lucky because I’ve been working with Ruby & Junior. On Friday, we head back to set… to film a commercial together. They couldn’t be more excited, so I’m delighted!

Director Ross: ‘Just so you know we’ve hired a Dad.’

I looked at my call sheet on Tuesday just to see who they cast as ‘Dad’ and OH MY GOD it was ‘Grayson!!’ Earlier this year, I shot a film called ‘Leave in Lurch,’ and I was cast as Grayson’s girlfriend.

On Friday for the commercial (a whole different set, story and director) he’s been cast as my husband and the kids ‘Dad.’ How crazy is that!!

So out of all the submissions casting received from thousands of actors and models, where a family had to be selected…The director randomly picked us as his perfect ‘on screen’ couple…not knowing that we’d already been cast as such earlier in the year.

I’ve spoken to Grayson and he’s buzzing! He’s so excited and over the moon. So it’s just really great to be working with him and the babies this Friday! What an absolute Vibe!!! What a twist of fate! It’s literally just…well…CRAZY!! (They’ll be loads of BTS! So stay tuned.)

A lot of my life is work right now and it just feels amazing. More than amazing. I can’t describe it? I have my agent Rob, to thank for that. He’s been on ANOTHER level. He’s absolute dynamite.

I feel like I’ve literally come straight out of lockdown within seconds and ‘boom’ I had 7 lucky auditions, booked 4 of them & that was just one week. He called yesterday to congratulate Ruby. She’s just booked another film. At this point I’m just flabbergasted! I don’t know what’s happening??

But I’m breathing and I’m smiling. 🙂 I’m really grateful.

What else? Oh! I’ve been Tiktok banned!! I’ve disappeared. Just recently an idiotic person or a gather of devastatingly idiotic people kept reporting my videos. On Tiktok, You can only get reported so many times until you get banned. Therefore I’m banned, now :). However, in a way it feels like ABSOLUTE BLISS!

What a blessing in diguise? As soon as I realised, it was weird? A powered puff of ‘happy’ sort of misted around me? It was like I could breathe again…like a strange burden had been lifted, where I no longer had to be a slave to my 15 second pieces of entertainment!

I mean don’t get me wrong, it served it’s purpose during lockdown. I loved tiktoking through that time…when I had nothing else to do. It gave me something to be excited about. It also built popularity which I’m grateful for, as I was lucky (or smart enough 😉 ) to have it turned into jobs!

Yet recently as I got busier and busier, with work. It was audition after audition. Script read, after script read. Line learning…My real job. All the stuff I truly love, not the ‘quick fix’ kinda love, that fills a temporary void.

Well it became apparent that i couldn’t be bothered to post anymore? It was almost becoming a chore…like I HAD to post, to make an audience happy, more than wanting to post and that’s not how I live. It almost felt restricting and suffocating in a weird way?

So I kinda just feel so relieved, that such a responsiblity had been taken away from me. :). I feel like a proper actor again…instead of a show pony. Lol. A burden’s been lifted and life is simple again. It’s perfect.

I always think people take something simple & then go out of their way to complicate it at times? In Wunna Land the babies and I try and live by the art of absolute simplicity. We eradicate the non essentials. We don’t give complications or dodgy situations priority. We’ve been happy ever since. I’ve been so insanely focused ever since.

So many wonderful things have happened to us AFTER we committed to keeping things simple.

(Ruby’s just walked into my room with a gold face/peel away mask on.)

Anyway, Last night I got to chatter to the girls at BBC Radio. I feel so grateful to have been lucky enough to get a last minute call to be a guest of their show to discuss the fine art of public dating! It was such a blast! I loved it…and well they’ve supported the kids and I all the way through our careers! So I’m utterly humbled! (Thank you soooooo much for having me on! And I got to plug ‘Series of Light!’ Haha! Yes!!)

Oh! I just wanted to also say thank you for all the DM’s I’ve received because of that painting I did yesterday. Lol.

It was just a bit of fun. Ruby and I had an artsy day yesterday. We did self portraits and just enjoyed making a mess really! Haha. I love to draw & paint. It’s so therapeutic. I’m certainly not an artist. I’m an actor. But I do love art.

I am prepping for a film right now, called ‘Stained Canvas,’ I play ‘Lily.’ I cant wait to begin filming. We’ve been in rehearsals recently. So I just figured, I’d catch a vibe and stain a canvas.

But thank you so much for the love. 🙂 It’s always appreciated.

Everything’s just brilliant right now…and it’s only the beginning!

Have the most beautiful day!!!