Y’know, despite the ‘ups, downs & sticky life roundabouts,’ Ruby, Junior and I are having the most wonderful Summer. This Summer has been THE BEST Summer of of our lives. It’s been so good, it’s ‘juicy. Almost ‘freshly squeezed’ rolled in excitement and sprinkled with true love.
I always say it….but I feel really lucky!
The babies are beaming and even though the Summer Holidays are wrapping up & coming to an end, i’ll always remember the Summer of 2019, as our favourite Summer so far.
We’ve shopped, we’ve lunched, we’ve played, we have a new pet (there’s a whole blog on ‘Boris’ shortly) and we’ve even actually worked. (They’re loving doing their Youtube videos. Hopefully some of you or YOUR little ones, have watched a couple.) As little bits of money is a trickling in, (I have an YT app, where they can watch their progress, & they can’t even believe it. They get so giddy. It’s cute.)
Ruby: ‘How can people make money just for having fun? It’s sooo good! I can’t believe it?’
Me: ‘That’s the whole point Ru. You’re meant to do something that you love. That way it never feels like work & ALWAYS feels like fun. It makes you happy!’
I guess, I should teach them that ‘work is work’ & ‘play is play,’ but I’m not going to. I always want them to choose their HAPPIEST option because to me you should always be doing BOTH and both should certainly come ‘hand in hand.’
Every time I’ve separated the two, my soul’s felt grey, still and like I’m in the wrong place, in the only time I have left on this Earth ball. It’s always been a stressful feeling. That’s not something that I want to teach on. I don’t want them to ever sacrifice their happiness. Anything in life that they feel they can’t handle, I’m here to step in, love, guide and support.
The wonderful thing about their videos is that because they’re only 8 & 6, they’re never ever thinking about money making & ONLY thinking about having ‘doing fun’ and living…I’ll capture their moments & lots of times without them even realising. I’m loving making memories…
Oh! Hang on…Someones calling me…
[An hour later…]
Sorry. I got distracted. I’ve been worried about Junior and all the drama that he’s going through with his Father. Everything was fine & just like that his Dad turned sour and shattered his illusion of peace, trust and confidence within a moment.
I knew it would happen because I know his Father and I know how internally broken down his Father is, due to his dodgy experiences through life, so far. If he was smart, he’d get therapy & not find comfort through strict religion that he forces onto others.
I never let on, to Junior. I tried to be positive & supportive. Then just as predicted, his Father’s own ‘life pain’ got the better of him & he turned malicious, sneaky and what I’m going to label as plain old ‘dodgy.’
He made a malicious call, which had two humans show up at my home at 9.15pm, a couple nights ago. It felt alarming & scary. Luckily, I my entire family just so happened to be at mine. My Mum was a champion. I was SO glad she was there.
Long story short….What he unkindly hoped would be bad, ended up working out positively for me. However, both Ruby and Junior rushed downstairs. They heard and saw everything. Ruby’s tough, so handled how she felt with ease. Junior’s the baby and was therefore terrified. He expressed he was scared. I told him not to be. From that evening on. I noticed a big change. He’s been okay on the surface, yet quite emotional. In fact, emotional with dashes of anxiety? He wet the bed last night. He hasn’t done that in years.
But just so you know, we’re all okay and again appropriate action has been taken. I’m feeling strong and well when Ruby, Junior and I are together, we’re unbreakable. Add my Mum ( & the rest of my family) to the equation…and there’s just so much love, that no hate could ever triumph up over it.
DBear: ‘…and he’s meant to be kind and religious???? What a joke! Who does that!!!?!!!’
(DBear is a remarkable human.)
I went out of my way to make Junior happy from that point. My mum went out of her way to make ME happy, because she thought that I might be a little shaken under a glittery service of ‘I’m fine.’ Haha. (I WAS fine. In a situation like this, I always feel great because I felt strong! It was almost like HE had showed weakness. I have everything he doesn’t have…Love, family, success & happiness. I understand why he makes me a target. I understand that he’d be dwelling on the fact that we’re now divorced. He acted up, as it hit what would’ve been a wedding anniversary. I understand it all…. but it DOESN’T make it okay….nor does it make it legal.)
Anyway….( I must be just letting it all out. I’ll quit rambling. You guys are great therapy! Haha)
My duty was to smile, shake off the drama and make people smile again. Make people know they were appreciated. I shifted the grey cloud away with that traditional Wunna Land *wink.*
But that’s the good thing… The solution WE ALL reached for was to ‘move on’ and do the ‘make everyone we loved & are responsible for happy, again’ thing. That’s a good bunch of humans!!! That’s true Wunna style! Haha. .
Everyone stayed over that night. My entire family. When I woke up, I woke everyone else up immediately, with excitement. ( That was probably annoying.) I don’t know why I was excited? My ‘bounce back ability’ must just be on point! But I felt good!
Mum: ‘Oh gosh? What’s happened now?’
Me: ‘Nothing. Haha. Everyone get up and get dressed. I’ll wake the babies up! Let’s all just go have some fun!! Like a massive family ‘out & about’ thing.’
Mum: ‘Yep. Good idea. I’m in.’
She looked at me with a beam in her eyes. She looked at me like she couldn’t be prouder.
Whenever Junior gets back from having to be away to ‘bond’ he’s always dying to have so much fun!!! I mean just getting back and realising he had a tortoise was just an utter peak for him. We’ve done so much since, yet that made him so happy he cried actual tears of joy. Lol
Me: ‘What d’ya want to do today Ju?’
Junior: ‘LEEDS!!!!!! Ruby & I really want to do LEEDS!!! We want to play, buy toys and have a really yummy lunch!!!!!’
Ruby: ‘Can we Mum?’
(The reason why they love a Leeds City Centre day is because it’s one of their ‘happy places.’ They see it as an adventure, a good time, because of the first surprise ‘Staycation’ they had earlier in the year. The city centre is filled with great memories and excitement for them! They it love so much, they beg me to buy a city centre apartment every month! Haha)
‘Yeah, of course….put ya shoes on. Let’s go!!!!’
And just like that…. We were off! Take a peek…