Morning :)

I woke this morning, to Junior ‘helicopter’ spinning a thick gold chain, around my face, at the actual speed of light, whilst in hysterical laughter. When the world suddenly came into focus, I noticed that the chain had a giant plastic fortune cookie attached to the end of it. Haha. How on earth he found a thick gold chain I don’t know? I get how he found a giant fortune cookie. I mean…this is Wunna land, after all. I’m surprised it wasn’t diamond encrusted. 😉

Then Ruby appeared out of nowhere, filled with excitement, with outstanding her head of curly fruwls and shoved a giant picture in my face. It was SO close to my face that I definitely couldn’t see and questioned if breathing was going to be an issue. Lol. Then she shouted, from 1cm away… ‘Mum, LOOK I’ve designed your new room. Your bed is a SWAN!!!!!!’

We’re a week into isolation, social distancing and all that jazz. You all know the score. The UK has gone into total ‘lock down’ and we’re no longer allowed to leave our homes unless we have a medical emergency, need a trip to go buy food or if you’re headed to work. (Like my Mum- who’s a Doctor and at 70 something is headed out to work, to help those in need. I hope you clapped for the NHS on Thursday evening. I’m really proud of my Mother’s spirit. She’s a real hero.I mean she even won the NHS Hero Award. I love her madly.) We’re also allowed to go out for exercise once a day. Yet when we’re taking these trips outside, we are to stand at least 2 metres away from one another.

Outside supermarkets, security have been placing humans on 2 metre distance markers into queues and only letting folk in a ‘few at a time.’ (I queued yesterday for juice, cucumbers and then I thought ‘fuck it I need wine.’ Everyone kept waving at me in the queue, whilst I stood on my marker. It was oddly great for my ego! I felt like Miss. World. Haha.

But yes…We are all self isolation at home. Ruby, Junior & I. Like I said, we’re about a week in and we’re loving it….even though the circumstances aren’t exactly ideal. We’re kinda having a blast!

I didn’t want to blog through the adjustment, as everyone’s a little more edgy, a bit more touchy and a wee bit disgruntled through a change, aren’t they? And I think it’s important for humans to find THEIR OWN footing through a big change.

I’m someone who deals with change really well because it’s just something that constantly happens throughout my life. Nothing can shock me. Nothing can shake me. It’s actually a part of my personality that I kinda do love. I love that BOTH my children are the same way because they’ve been through so much already.

Don’t get me wrong, i’ll have a worry, i’ll FEEL (I feel everything.) I’ll then get the ‘moan’ out the way and within a moment… I’m okay. (I’m naturally that way wired. However, you’ll also find that when you’re a parent, you tend to deal with things in a more mighty, yet loving ‘don’t at all worry-I got this’ fashion.’ That way your babies always feel safe, happy & inspired.

Right now…it’s not so bad! The suns out. The birds are chirping. Our world is filled with warmth, laughter and love. I’ve cooked the best meals and shocked myself…because we would ALWAYS eat out. We’ve been so creative. We’ve sang, drawn, danced and watched great actors. 😉 I’ve literally home schooled the children ALL WEEK. They’ve done full school days, AT HOME from 9am-3.30pm with Yours Truly. (Haha. Can you imagine!)

As I tweeted, I always had a huge respect for all teachers, yet NOW there’s WHOLE NEW LEVEL of love & admiration. Lol. So yes, thank you to all of the teachers, who have in ANY way inspired or educated my babies. It’s certainly enjoyable, but GOD it’s HARD WORK!!

I’ve worked really hard, so far this year. But right now I’m not concentrating on work at all. There’s no point. I’m taking it a day at a time because when we come out of this my work schedule is going to be BONKERS. Right before we went into isolation, I had not only filmed back to back films…but just booked another few. It’s going to be hectic.

What I’m doing is loving home life, with my little ones Ru & Ju. They couldn’t be happier and it’s made my soul glisten. (That could also be the wine. 🙂 )

Recently, I’ve worked so much, that this break, this time that we’re all having at the moment, without worry, just joy…is simply beautiful. It’s a time that I’m treasuring and choosing to live with my babies, who are my everything. We’re not struggling through it. We’re embracing it….and I hope you are too.

It’s kinda made everyone in the world just stop, adjust and simply ENJOY life for what it is! We can deal with the drama later….

In this time people around the world, will learn a lot about themselves, each other and their choices. They’ll realise what makes them happy or what doesn’t quite fill their world with love. Yet most of all, I noticed that something so terrible connected us ALL…as one. It reminded us that no-one is bigger or better than each anyone else and that ‘as one’ we’re united as a world. The big picture.

One week in.. I’m loving this time:.. Sit back. Enjoy it. Worry about nothing. Live.

All my love,

Chrissie x

It’s Spring!!!!!

Happy first day of Spring! Happy International Day Of Happiness! I hope you’re all doing exceedingly well & making glorious use of the free time that’s been blown our way, due to the tango of the Corona Virus. 

This has been the first time, in absolute months that I’ve had off work, so I’m choosing to see it as a luxury. It keeps things deliciously perky & positive. Especially when the other side is to see it as a self isolating prison. Only the grumbly will do that…and I know you’re not grumbly. 😉

I’m certainly one who can enjoy my own company. 😉 However (although I’m being positive about the situation & just getting on with it all,) I’m actually not one who believes that self isolation is a wonderful thing. I get the ‘don’t spread germs and the virus’ shabam…I come from an entire family of Doctors. It makes sense. I’m not stupid. I don’t like the idea of passing on the virus if I had it. But like I said to my good good friend Jenna yesterday. We chatted outside, as people dashed about us bulk buying all the pasta…

‘If I get the corona virus and die…at least I’ve had a good life. Haha.’

Jenna: ‘Haha…true Wunna. Very true!!!’

We pissed ourselves laughing. Got on with life. She walked off with her milk & I ventured onward to find potatoes.

Oh the glamour! I never thought I’d ever have to go on a hunt for potatoes. I usually hunt for gin, diamonds or handsome folk.

I even bumped into ‘Lori’ who I love so madly because she has the most delicious sense of humour. Our daughters are in school together and It was a happy bumping. I haven’t seen her in so long. But she’s delightful. We got to chat for ages & just have a laugh, as everyone busied around, us madly.

Me: ‘Well at least you’ve been smart. You have turkey and a chicken. I have Budweiser and Super noodles.’

Lori: ‘Haha. I think we should buy lentils? I swear, we’re gonna have to be on rations! It’s crazy. Lol.’

Yesterday, I noticed that a lot of people had chosen to be out and about, instead of completely self isolating…because you just can’t successfully live your life trapped indoors 24/7…and still be emotionally stable.

That’s why I don’t fully agree with complete self isolation. It’s not a well balanced procedure.

My soul likes to feel free as a bird. It runs through the Wunna land blood line. We like to live, love and see the world. Feel the wind in our hair. Flirt with adventure & excitement. Dance on the streets. Cartwheel across the lands. You get the picture.

However luckily, Ruby, Junior & I enjoy each other’s company SO incredibly much, due to the little world that we accidentally managed to create….So for us, it’ll all be wonderful. I’m not sure it’s wonderful for everyone though & my heart goes out to them! It truly does. I send you all my love from the bottom of my heart.

All my filming has now been postponed. I’m officially off work until filming resumes. I’m enjoying the rest. I’m eating well. I’m relaxing and loving it. It’s been quite a blessing. I’m really Thankful for this break, that I didn’t realise I needed.

The babies finish school today, after it has been announced that all UK schools are to be closed as of this afternoon, to keep the nation safe!

It was certainly the correct decision. Plus, it keeps the teachers safe..and teachers alone are a blessing!

I looked at all the children in the playground this morning. They were laughing, running around and well they just looked SO SO happy to be around each other, oblivious to the stress that the world was under. It was lovely to see them all so free, as for a while now…they won’t have that burst of morning excitement…until further notice.

I’m not gonna lie. I’m excited to have my babies home with me. I’ve worked so hard, so it’s the perfect down time. It’s always a laugh with them. Yes, mental. Completely mental. But hilarious!!!

They’re already winding me up with Tik Tok moves and Nerf guns bullets to my forehead, as a wake up call. I wouldn’t have it any other way! They’re my bliss. My world. I literally DO live for them.

Ruby thinks I’m ruining her 9yr old career by refusing to start a Tik Tok account for her AND then DO VIDEOS WITH HER. She has another film, a book and a bag line to tend to by the end of this year. Her ambition makes me giggle. But she hasn’t enough on her plate AND home school. Although I’m similar. I’m her grounding influence…because I’ve lived the life she wishes for… I’m there to make sure she doesn’t get lost in a world of flurry. I keep it real. I keep it loving. I keep it positive.

On the other side of the room…

Junior thinks that burgers, like money…grows on trees???

Eh?

Junior: ‘If i plant this sesame seed Mum, it’ll turn into a burger tree.’

Me: ‘Burgers don’t grow on trees, baby.’

Junior: ‘They do! Like money.’

Me: ‘Money doesn’t grow on trees, baby.’

Junior: ‘Oh?’

Whhhhhy, though!?!?!

I mean, family self isolation hasn’t even started yet and this is what I’m having to deal with…with a tortoise, a cat and in a kimono.

Happy first day of Spring! I hope you’re all doing well!

Make the most of every second!

Love you very much,

Chrissie x

Just a quick one…

How you all doing?

This is a quick catch up blog, as obviously a lot is going on in the world right now, with the whole ‘virus’ dilemma….I have a so much tell you. So much has happened. I’ve been so busy! Lots of work. Lots of life. I’ve also been in Manchester booking ace jobs!

However…back to the world ‘Covid 19’ situation.. If I’m being honest, I’m loving those who are staying safe, yet STILL having fun and living. (It’s really NOT the end of the world. If you’re panicking…don’t. Take the necessary precautions, yet keep enjoying life.)

There’s no reason to feel at a loss. I understand a lot of the stress. Yet things haven’t stopped. They’ve simply ‘paused’ and I’m enjoying the ‘pause’ because we need it at times. There’s nothing you can do…so make like Prosecco… just chill and enjoy!

PLUS, you’ve got back up…if you’re feeling rubbish…this time, THE REST of the world UNDERSTANDS how you’re feeling. We get it. We got you. Don’t worry. Plonk a smile on ya face. Everything happens for a reason! Everything will be fine. You’re exactly where you’re meant to be!

I assure you…The beat still goes on regardless. …kinda whether you like it or not.

So please continue to stay positive and keep moving forward because this whole living in fear and hoarding toilet roll bonanza…. is bonkers.

Stop it! Stop it now! Stop being nuts! I mean who hoards such an unnecessary essential. Get the RUM! GET ALL THE WINE!

Toilet roll? It couldn’t get any duller. 😉 If everything comes to an end…you’ll want a GIN…not a bit of paper to wipe ya ‘hooty.’

Builder to my right: ‘I saw a man driving in marigolds! Lol. Really! I honestly just did! He had a face mask on n’all!’

Other Builder: ‘I swear I’ve already had it. I had it last week.’

‘We’re Yorkshire. We’ll be fine. Just put a big coat on.’

‘I’ve had the flu jab, me. I’m sorted.’

However yes, my inbox is FULL of you all asking how I’m doing etc…

Well…we here in Wunna Land are doing GREAT for such a strange time. Ruby, Junior and I are literally & quite weirdly having THE BEST time, in a long time.

The babies are still in school. If that changes…then they’ll love it, as they’ll get to stay at home for days on end. Haha.

I’m still filming. I’m back on the ‘L’appel du Vide’ set with Director Georgia tomorrow because we’re absolutely ‘gangsta.’ I mean, at the end of the day, if I didn’t die falling down a cliff during the storms, the Virus won’t kill me… and if it does…let’s face it..I’ve had a good life, haven’t I! Lol.

So yeah…we’re still gonna be working like troopers and making the most of the ‘down’ time.

Of course, a lot of shoots etc.. have been postponed, due to the whole self isolation issue…However they’re ONLY postponed…There’s no need to fret. I’m seeing a lot of fretting. Things really WILL go back to normal! Quicker than you think….

But yes…people are asking me if i’m self isolating and if I’m being honest… No. Not yet. We’re still eating out. We’re still living and enjoying our family time together. But don’t get me wrong, when everywhere decides to close, then we won’t go be going out and about…because we won’t be able to! Lol.

But yes, We’re all happy, healthy and doing really well, In fact, we’re doing surprisingly better than we ever have? It’s odd? I know. But it’s a really lucky time for Wunna land and I feel so utterly grateful. I feel SO completely blessed. If there were lucky stars i’d thank them! (I’m almost having to pinch myself, as I’m watching ‘dreams come true’ & for that feeling alone…i’m truly grateful.)

I hope you’re all well, all happy and all staying safe.

Love you dearly!

Chrissie x

Toyko Hit

I blinked….and there I was….

I was happily lost in a lusty world of magic, creativity, The Hara and wild rock music. I’d been beckoned there, to the Grand Theatre in Lancaster, on Sunday February 9th by ‘The Gods’ at Cosmic Joke, (@cosmic.joke) Alex Taylor (@mancwthamviecam) & Shona Brown (@sb_inthe_hills).

My presence was requested to come ‘play‘ Burlesque, in the name of ‘Tokyo Hit,’ which is @theharaband ‘s brand new single. I mean, what an ice cold Prosecco dripped drrreeeeam.

https://www.instagram.com/p/B9PikU3JHHF/?igshid=18htj9x41kydj

The single is out of this world! It’s insane! They went STRAIGHT in at Number 1 in the Rock Charts and their album ‘We Are The Movement’ is at Number 2 in the overall album charts! It’s the song that changed their EVERYTHING!

The music video went live last night at 7pm and it is INSANE!!!! Not only did I get to WATCH IT…but I got to actually LIVE IT!

https://www.instagram.com/p/B9IH8cLJHc_/?igshid=irt5t0cgivnh

Now…come closer….

Listen up. If The Hara OR Cosmic Joke EVER beckon you….LET ALONE if BOTH OF THEM beckon you AT ONCE…YOU GO!

YOU GO IMMEDIATELY, because @cosmic.joke are the ‘creme de la– ooh la’ of film, video and magical creations. The Hara @theharaband are literally an outstanding, ‘cut above the rest,’ slicky slice. They are making their mark in rock music! They are changing the game and doing it a wink at a time!

If you get beckoned…it’s almost like winning a naughty ‘Golden Ticket,’ where you get to have fun on the dark side, for a moment.

You GET through Storm Ciara, through the floods, fog, rain, road closures and early mornings and you strut into their world, put on a corset, slide into pair of soft fishnets, tinker into a set of frilly satin shorts, slip on your heels and as The Queen of makeup @kategracemu does your face, hair and gusto…

https://www.instagram.com/p/B9MKrZWnNub/?igshid=1avsjln8sbexr

You FIND your inner sexy…you get up on that stage… and you DANCE!

What a way to spend a Sunday! It was a wild day filled with lights, swirls, music, pretend drum banging, boys blowing down trumpets, waving flat caps (@will_dakin you were amazing….) cameras, screaming fans, playtime, fishnets action and the most divine freedom of madness! There was a storm going on outside…Yet in our world nothing else mattered but true creation and deliciousness.

The crew were outstanding. They knew what they wanted and got it. The Hara are obviously phenomenal. There wasn’t a moment that wasn’t filled with ‘good times’ and we got to be wild and free, as we all soared through the Grand Theatre, creating a music video, for you ALL to feel part of!

It makes you feel alive.

It was on a complete other level. It was a rush!

https://www.instagram.com/p/B79CCtWjQwM/?igshid=1suqehcnw72fs

As soon as you walked into The Grand Theatre, you felt it. You felt the magic in the air. It oozed sexiness, hard work, dark fun and life. The place looked divine. It did however meandered a sense of calmness, which balanced out the excitement. We were all there to work…and we did.

I mean everyone was a professional at what they did…So there was literally no stress. It was all so easy. We were all quietly confident and relaxed! Plus everyone on set got along really well, trusted each other and listened to one another. We were all filled with humility. Everyone was down to earth and kind. So even though we all smashed it…At the end we couldn’t really even believe we did! Lol

Most of us on set were Northerners. There are times where us Northerners do great things, can’t believe it and then celebrate with 17 pints, once it sinks in. Lol.

The Queen of makeup Katie was starlight. I walked in like i’d been washed a shore, from a cold desert island somewhere ‘that way.’ I walked out of hair and makeup looking like the sassiest piece of Oriental, that your eyes could’ve ever seen! A ‘Rockstar’ couldn’t have designed me any better himself.

When I looked in the mirror, she had literally turned me into some kind of Goddess of ultimate edge and sassiness. I felt like a Queen! It was the most wonderful way to start the day. (Then she banged her head and dressed like ET.)

I was teamed up with Rachel, who’s absolutely beautiful & the most phenomenal dancer. She was so sweet and I loved her. There was a moment where we just looked at each other in amazement. We felt so lucky to pretty much be ‘the chosen ones.‘ We don’t have a bad day job. Lol

Alex is a GREAT Director. He’s one of my favourites. He’s phenomenal at what he does, but does, what he does…with such witty ease. He’s hilarious! He has this great sense of humour. A dry sense of humour & sees the whole big picture in his head always. He makes the magic happen and what he creates is always top notch, so you know you’re in good hands. I’ll say it again. He’s a GREAT Director. He has these wonderful moments of deep thought, where he sounds like a scientific genius of the creative arts…

‘Let’s just think about the psychics of it all…’

‘No. When the girls are ALL over you, the way you FEEL is…. (breathes in through his nose…and as he slowly releases, he says…) that it is…ACCEPTABLE…’

(Then we all smirk, like they were the words of God.)

Shona, The Producer is an absolute delight. She has a fun streak, an amazing temperament. She showed me a Burlesque move that I could maybe deliver for the shot… (which was filled with Sass and let me tell you…absolutely remarkable.) Yet at the same time she’s calm, focused and kind. She smiles a lot. She has this radiance to her. She’s definitely the glue. She makes everything run so smoothly. I love her!

The Hara boys.

What’s amazing guys!!! Josh, Jack & Zack!!! They deserve all the success in the absolute world. Yes, they’re SO talented musically and creatively. Yes, they’re ‘rock stars.’ But y’know, they’re the kindest guys you’ll meet. Theres a softness to them. They feel really lucky. They’re filled with passion. They’re all northern and thoughtful. I loved how humble they were. I mean, they’ve achieved an awful lots abscess I have so much respect for them for that! And yeah, they’re fun and zany in pvc pants, makeup and fishnets. But they’re so down to earth and easy to get on with. They really want to do well and they WORK SO HARD to do well.

It’s honestly mesmerising to watch them on stage..and any time to get to sit with Josh, between takes, whilst he’s talking you through how scabby his knee tattoo once was… you know life is bliss! I watched the video last night and his performance is absolutely out of this world!!! I’m an actress. I watch a lot of people ‘play’ every single day. He smashed it about! They all did. But I was exceptionally impressed.

They’re a team. They’re a family and it was an absolute wonderful honour to be welcomed in for the day, to help them film and celebrate their new single ‘Tokyo Hit’ which has basically become on overnight hit!

I mean…STRAIGHT IN at Number 1.

I couldn’t be more grateful for my time with every single person, that I worked with on that day. I love that my Wunna land path crossed with yours, in this life time.

So, as the story goes… ALL I’m gonna ask you to do…is to simply ENJOY the new music video, for their new single ‘Tokyo Hit.’

We all loved creating it for you and it genuinely always means the world to know that you loved it too.

Hit the link below….and enjoy…

https://youtu.be/obn5EkGQoZ8

Leave In Lurch

What a truly amazing time. What a phenomenal film to be part of. I’ve just ‘wrapped’ on ‘Leave in Lurch’ with Green Run Productions & if there was a film that sincerely represented a real walk of life, a genuine ‘feel’ of existence, in it’s truest and grittiest form…with the ‘drama’ coming from pure heart, soul, passion, anger & strife…it would be this one.

It’s an amazing film. I’m gonna say it again so you remember…

It’s an AMAZING film!

I’d be looking to be part of a Yorkshire based, street/crime drama for such a long time. A great one never came up. It’s something that just has to be done right, isn’t it? It’s not as easy as everyone would think. Then came ‘Leave in Lurch,’ a Yorkshire based, crime/drama in it’s truest form. It was raw, it was real and based on life in the streets of Bradford, West Yorkshire.

As soon as I read the script, met the crew, heard who the other actors were, and understood the feel of the film…Y’know, the how and where it was all going to be shot…I was IN! There were no ‘airs,’ no ‘graces,’ just great talents dedicated and determined to tell their story.

I mean they hit the streets running and brimming with confidence! The crew (the Green Run Production Guys) set up in the heart of the roughest alley ways, towns and corners of Bradford, ready to give their script absolute LIFE & with zero fear…ALL heart!

No big studio lots, no designed sets….It was all filmed within the centre and mist of real street life in Bradford. We literally filmed it amongst families and the people who were doing THEIR version of life, the only way they knew how….on the streets.

So, I cameo in the film. I play ‘Josh’s Girlfriend.’ Every role in this movie, big or small, on set or off set…makes a difference. It matters because a true family vibe was created during filming. It was kinda essential for the intimacy that was needed, y’know to give the script life.

Everyone wants this film to do well and the majority of the cast ARE Yorkshire based. Therefore, of course, i’m ever so proud to be representing because I’m Yorkshire born and raised. Fair enough, i’m not very ‘gangsta‘ and I did do a six year stint in Hollywood… However, this film mattered because it told a story of real life, culture and being part of this film, made me hold my head up high, with that true northern spirit.

My eyes and soul have seen a lot in my time, whilst on my life travels. My heart has felt even more…So I embraced this vibe with everything that I was!

Everyone knows that ALL Yorkshire people, love being from ‘Yorkshire.’ We’re the ‘Salt of the Earth.’ The best people about. 😉 So, as you can imagine, whilst the crew and actors were filming all over the city of Bradford, people were poking their heads out of their windows, standing in their doorways in their dressing gowns watching the film being made. Locals where taking photos. Real life fights were happening on the streets, whilst the scripted pretend fights were being filmed. Real life deals were being made down dodgy alley ways. It was just surreal to be in amongst it all AND film the story, whilst the real life version was happening all around us, every single minute, of every single day. You couldn’t buy that magic.

We lived it. We felt it. We even chatted to street folk in between takes…who thought we weren’t filming a movie at all and instead thought we we’re undercover police, over watching the streets.

It was just amazing!

So, Ruby (@rubyandjunior) my little girl, plays ‘Ava Khan‘ in the movie.

She plays ‘Bilal’s’ daugher. ‘Bilal’ is the main character in the film. She’s plays the ‘light‘ amongst the ‘darkness,’ that is taking place and I can’t even nearly describe to you how PROUD I am of her. I can’t find the words to tell you how….I just can’t believe it. I’ve never in my life actually been IN A film WITH my own daughter and the way she conducted herself on set… was just astonishing. She blows my mind every day!

I was there every day she was on set filming. Yet when it came to the creativity, i left her to it, to listen to the Director. (Ben @benleejones) She understood the story. She understood her character. She knew her lines. She had chats with Ben and took his direction. They had a really great bond. A wonderful respect for one another. She felt really comfortable and safe.

I can’t believe how grown she is now. I can’t believe it at all! I think she’s just so happy to have spent her half term at 8 years old (well she actually turned 9 yesterday ..) in her own words…’in a film…on a film set….filming.‘ Lol. She wanted to be in a ‘real gritty’ film…and I made it happen for her. (It IS Wunna Land afterall. 😉 )

Junior came along every single day because they just can’t do anything without each other. It’s cute! They’re so close, they stand by each other’s always….and he JUST LOVED, being part of it all! He was so excited he could’ve BURST. I mean the boys just made him feel so loved and important all the time, which I’m really grateful for. He made some really wonderful memories, that he’ll treasure forever. He literally wanted to stay there the whole entire time…and cried all the way home on his last day on set. Lol.

I so wholeheartedly impressed with every single member of Green Run Productions. I mean the way they cared and handled working with children on set, was literally first class. They entertained, played, chatted and made both Ruby and Junior feel so confident and appreciated, on and off set always!! They were remarkable. All of them.

I mean, even when they were really busy, they always found time to make sure the kids were okay. They handled the situation exceptionally. Lets face it, it’s not easy trying to bring the best out performance out of an 8 year old, in film, when it comes to gritty crime/dramas. Especially when they’re a ‘Wunna Baby’…and Junior is threatening to either give you a ‘squirrel wedgie,’ tell you a joke about Santa & Poo’s, or demanding that you make him pancakes.

Junior: ‘I’ve got a joke.’

Dan (@danparker16) : ‘Go on…’

Junior: ‘Why did Santa cross the road?’

Dan: ‘Haha..i don’t know?’ (He knew something ridiculous was a coming…)

Junior: ‘…because he needed a poo.’

This is what Dan had to deal with, in between takes, boom holding and ‘room tone’ seconds.

But they did it! The crew had Alvin & the Chipmunks playing, pancakes, chocolate, sweets, drinks, they let Junior help out, they made Ruby feel confident, Harry (Production Design) found them lego, computer games, board games and toy shields. Ben ran around the house with them and let them put him in a dungeon. Jake showed them magic tricks. The list is endless. It was insane. But they handled it all…whilst filming a street crime, drama. Lol.

But away from the babies. It’s a great film. It’s remarkably shot & the fight scenes are choreographed almost beautifully, with a free rough edge, allowing the actors to savage in their own kind of wild. (That’s GREAT Directing!!)

I’ve never seen a crew work as hard as Green Run Productions. They were so filled with passion. They stayed up until 6am on nights, going through all the shots for the next day…because they wanted to make sure they got it exactly right!!!

Jamie (@Malay.JJ) : ‘We’ve had two hours sleep. But we’re fine. We can sleep when we’re done.’

I noticed that they all got along so closely off-set, which was obvious in the way they worked together to create magic on set. They travelled from Southampton to film in Bradford and were living together in a giant house in the middle of the countryside. When they chilled they were just like a family.

I mean one day on set, when we were filming the fight scene in an alley way, Storm Denis decides to come along and play ‘gangsta,’ with us. It didn’t rain….it stormed!!!

All the equipment was safely treasured…and the actors placed in warm cars. But as I looked through the car windscreen, I saw every member of the Green Run Crew, stood in a huddle, the middle of the most stormiest wet storm, in a Bradford alleyway. They were drenched from head to toe. I mean SOAKED!!! Their umbrellas had turned upside down, because the force of the wind was SO SO strong! They were freezing! They couldn’t feel their hands or faces! They couldn’t even breathe because Storm Denis was hitting them so hard!

All this was happening to them…and I looked at their faces.

All I could see was happiness, laughter, umbrella sharing, insta photo moments and a true sense of both work team spirit and friendship.

They waited until the storm passed…as soon as it did just for a moment…we were all back on our markers, in the alleyway, ready to shoot!

Ben: ‘Lets Go! Go! Go! Let’s get this done!!!!

I mean all of them.

Dan (@danparker16) Sound Recordist. He had such a great sense of humour. He held booms like they were his wifey & made sure he got everything he needed. I Liked his precision and confidence. I loved watching him work and adored listening to Junior tell him rubbish jokes. 🙂

Harry (@harryjamesfloyd) Art Director! I spent loads of time with Harry, as we sorted out wardrobe and props…all sorts! He was just so phenomenal at being organised and getting the job done. He was really dedicated and really great at making all the actors feel truly comfortable before being driven to set. He was sweet, yet particular and was good to Ruby & Junior.

Jake. The Gaffer. He was hard working, respectful and kind. There was a sweetness to him and I saw that no matter, whenever ANYONE needed help, he was there immediately, without a second thought. It didn’t matter what’s he had to do. He did it. You always need that guy.

Franki. (@frankiproduction) The Producer. He was always so gentle and polite. He went ‘above and beyond’ to make sure everybody single person on that set was happy, at all times. He solved all problems, so efficiently and within kindness. He’s like a gentle giant. He was the glue, when things weren’t going to plan & he delivered his role calmly, respectfully and with love. He was excellent!

@kebabdul.69420 You were so sweet and so much fun to chat to between takes. I loved your monologue and I missed grateful for your kindness. You’re certainly on the right track, for for being so young.

Eden. (@eden_hayeswright) Screenplay Writer. The only lady in the crew & she exuded absolute power. She worked so hard. She muscled through, with the boys. She lived with them. Stayed up with them and put them in line when necessary. Lol. I loved cosy car chats with her, during ‘need to keep warm’ moments. She wrote the script. She did an amazing job.

Jamie. (@Malay.jj) 1st AD. Editor. There’s a kindness to Jamie, a swag-like softness. There’s so many creative layers to him. You can almost see into his soul. Yet he has the personality of a Director because he knows what he wants and works really hard, without condition. He smiles a lot on set and I like that, but he’s ambitious. He’s gonna smash the edit of this film. I just know it.

Goose (@rohan_ramahamaha ) D.O.P. There’s a delightful zany quality to Goose. My children described him as a ‘superhero’ because he ran like one, and jumped off walls. In my mind, any D.O.P that takes the time to feed a magical pony apples, every morning, for good luck…is quite certainly a legend. I loved his quirkiness.

And Ben (@benleejones) What a fantastic Director. Motivated. Dedicated. He has a champion spirit. Yet a dynamic passion. He knows what he wants and he knows how to bring the best out of his team. I listened and respected fully because any guy of his age, who can strongly Direct a crew and team of actors, who ages range from 4 – 44 years old, through a Storm, choreographed fights and a crime/drama is phenomenal. He kept every happy and motivated. He wanted to do well for him….and hopefully we all did.

I definitely want to work with these guys again! I cannot wait to see the film…and i’ll be telling you about the actors who I worked with in a different blog!!! (It’s a WHOLE different blog indeed!! Haha!)

But thank you so incredibly much, from the bottom of my heart, to all of you at Green Run Productions. You are all true, true talents and I love that my little family and I have created such beautiful memories with you! I’m honoured to have worked with you. The film Is going to be amazing!!!!

The future is YOURS!!!

I love you.

Go check them out…

https://instagram.com/greenrunproduction?igshid=1sggeh0k7bqg4

Lost my phone…

I’ve lost my phone. I have no clue where it’s disappeared to? I lost it last night. It must’ve fallen out my bag, somehow? I’ve done the ‘find my iphone’ thing. I’ve wished upon stars. I’ve retraced ALL my steps.

No joy…

I literally have no access to any of my social accounts, or my email account until I’ve sorted it all out, because…and of course…I have everything on a two factor authentication vibe…Meaning my accounts can’t be accessed without a special ‘text to my phone’ code. Lol. A phone that I kinda don’t have? Haha.

Awesome!

But hopefully all will be sorted out shortly OR I might even find it!

If you have it…please return it to Wunna land. If you don’t….that’s fine…Yet if you receive my messages from my number, (until further notice) it’s not me.

I can however currently be contacted at this email….(in the meantime.)

Wunnachrissie@gmail.com

But yes…i’m currently filming, ‘L’appel du vide,’ so alls actually truly well.

Everything happens for a reason and right now…I’m not meant to have the comfort of my phone. Lol

L’appel du vide’ is a really internal film. It’s filled with dark places, raw thoughts and excessively deep realisations. It’s a mentally emotional film and I’ve chosen to go with ‘method’ for my wee bit of ‘i am the female lead’ acting. I want to get it right and do the role justice.

Day 1, has been wonderful! I was definitely in a creepy basement…in pink satin sheets. The movie is going to be stunning….

I can’t wait to be able to share it with you….

Big love! All the kisses…

Look after you’re phones…it’s rubbish when you lose them. 🙂

Chrissie

Feeling ‘Perfect’

I’m kinda just feeling really blessed. I know that sounds ‘cheesy.’ But I just can’t find the right word? I guess it’s just weird that almost every single day I wake up, a little dream of mine seems to come true? I don’t know why? I don’t know how? Maybe i’ve served my time of hardship? Yet, right now…I’m kinda on a ‘roll’ and i just feel so lucky. I just feel so grateful. I’m beaming from the inside out. Something’s happened? I don’t know what? Yet, the airs of Wunna land are glittered with luck and happiness. It’s swirling all the way around us, filled with love and sassy cheer. I feel really fortunate. It’s Feb 10th 2020. It’s a really good time to be me. Lol.

But let me take you back…

Obviously I started filming ‘Perfect.’ It’s a remarkable film. I’ve already filmed by bits, so i’m personally ‘wrapped’ on it now. Yet it was just such an honour to work alongside the Northern Film School (it’s one of the best film schools in the nation AND it’s based in Leeds.) I was and STILL AM, so grateful to be given the opportunity to create such magic with the people who ARE the ‘future of film.’

Everything they deliver is first rate. It’s first class. It’s a dream. I mean, any chance I get the opportunity to work alongside them, I do. They’re so utterly professional, in an almost fun, yet sophisticatedly- slick… manner. They’re organised. They trust each other’s work. But most of all they’re kind and they’re talented. They truly go above and beyond, the call of duty, to make their films magical. There are never any ‘egos’ and as soon as you walk onto ANY of their sets, you just FEEL a creatively, contagious excitement.

I got to play ‘Paula,’ in the film ‘Perfect.’ She was the nations most loved ‘Talk Show Host’ and it was just the most phenomenal experience. I mean even when Olly first gave me the call to tell me, that he wished to offer me the role, I was ecstatic. I filled up with excitement. I knew it was right!

I did a lot of improv for my role. I always think i’m rubbish at improv. Yet it’s weird how when you feel so comfortable on set, you kinda get carried away with it all. It becomes so real. Lets say if ‘chatting shit’ was a forte…it certainly was mine, on that day. Haha. I was lucky enough to work alongside the lovely Clint Gordon, who plays ‘Vince Locke.’ ( I mean, they couldn’t have cast a better guy for that role.) Yes, he’s delightfully attractive. Which is always a bonus, when on set…;) Yet, I never want THAT to take away from the fact, that he’s actually a truly wonderful actor. I guess, a lot of people will always talk about the way he looks. Yet I want you to notice the work that he does…

No-one works as hard as Clint. He’s gracious. He’s kind. Yet he’s ambitious. He wants to do well. He’s a true talent & goes ‘above and beyond’ to make sure he delivers his role appropriately.

But at the same time…he’s fun.

We’re both Leeds. We’re both Northern. So ‘on & off’ set we got on really well, which made ‘on screen’ chemistry so so easy…and you really do need that. I mean, great banter, cups of tea (or in my case black coffee, with all the sugars,) bad jokes, waiting around in Green Rooms, makeup rooms, line running, piss taking, selfies, laughter, chats about life and filming took place.

Me: ‘I can see ya cogs turning…

Clint: ‘I don’t want you to be able to see the cogs turning. They’re always turning.’

Me: ‘We need to find someone to take all our BTS shots? Haha… Did you smuggle your phone onto set? I did…’

Clint: ‘Yeah, yeah… Anyway, I’ve stolen these party rings from the green room, for a sugar fix. D’ya want one?’

Me: ‘Nooo….Where are we filming the next bit from?’

In a day, i must’ve made a hundred great memories, that i’ll carry for a lifetime. From ‘brow time’ with the makeup artists, watching Ebony solve everyones problem on set …with anything from a bag of basil, lemon tea or a nose in her hand. Olly’s ‘Everything is going to be okay’ smile. He has the best ‘Everything is gonna be okay’ smile. Wes, made me laugh, between takes, shouting fake ‘CUTS’ and between hand shaking with the extras. I had excellently sensible, yet brief chats with Lydia, who plays ‘Luisa’ (the female lead)…over pasta, fake noses and ‘I brought a cuppa soup.’ I love Lydia & Ian (who plays her Father in the film) very dearly. I didn’t actually do any of my scenes with them. But it was great to be part of something with them…I’m excited to watch their scenes, at the screening!

Jannah Zainol. The kindest Director, in the world ever. There’s a sweetness…a softness. Yet at the same time, she knows exactly what she wants, exactly how she’s like it to be done and exactly how to bring the best out of everyone. She’s sharp. She’s dynamic. Yet she’s calm. She’s not troubled by anything, in any way and i love that.

She told me that i’d brought such a ‘warmth’ to the set and It made me smile. It’s the things like that, that she is also SO great at. I loved every moment I had working with her.

Yet, the whole entire team, itself….I couldn’t have worked with a better bunch. Every single person on that set WANTED TO DO WELL. Everyone was alive, even during the ‘chill’ times…where you kinda HAVE TO find something to occupy yourself. Every single person on that set, wanted to give their best. They wanted to help one another, create a story & make movie magic. They kinda wanted to do themselves justice and fill out their role wholeheartedly. You just can’t go wrong, with people like that. Y’know, when you’re surrounded by such talent, love and passion.

I can’t wait for the screening…I know the film’s gonna do so well. It’s really well cast. 😉

So, pleeeeease do head over to their Instagram page and give them a follow. There’s so much happening behind the scenes, that you can ‘in the moment’ watch, as they film, edit and produce.

@aperfectfilm

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So much creativity in one room

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Then… as my day on set finished…my phone *pinged,* so I looked down and scrolled…before i headed up to the changing rooms, to get back into my normal clothes….

There was an email…it read…

‘Hi Chrissie,

We would like to offer you the role….

And just like that I blinked…and I found myself…

Tomorrow We’re ‘Perfect.’

I start filming ‘Perfect’ tomorrow & I couldn’t be more excited! I’ve been at the table read this afternoon with Clint, Lydia, Ian…the Directors & Producer. (Jannah, Ollie, Jadine, Ellice…) We went through a bit of the ‘blocking’ ready for the big day tomorrow and I got to have my first cheeky peeky at the set. (I play ‘Paula’ and she’s a ‘popular daytime talk show host.’ I’ve actually always wanted to be a talk show host…So as you can imagine…I’m ridiculously delighted! Haha. It’s just a little bit & I’m gonna do my little bit well.) Everyone looks like they’ve been working really hard. I honestly couldn’t be more excited, so hopefully I’ll do the role some justice. Y’know, be a really great part of a really great team and story. 

But all that starts tomorrow. I have a 8.30am call time. 

Today! Let me tell you. I saw little snippets of life that made smile. I saw a business man walk out of a Costa, on his way to work, in Leeds city centre. As the door slowly eased closed, behind him, he walked onto the busy Leeds streets, & handed over a fresh, warm drink to a freezing cold, homeless guy, who was trying to wrap himself up, underneath a blanket. 

Business Man: ‘It’s a hot chocolate, buddy. Hope that’s okay?’

He smiled and the homeless guy looked up at him and just beamed. 

It made my morning. 

It’s weird how the smallest gestures, make others peoples world just perfect for a simple moment. It’s contagiously beautiful. 

Then as I walked along Kirkstall Road, I saw a blind man, standing tall, waiting to cross the road, when he felt it was the right time. He seemed confident. He knew what he was doing. Yet, the gentleman stood next to him, offered to help him

across the busy street. He linked arms with him and walked him across safely. 

When the blind man got to the other side, he smiled and I swear I even saw a glint in his eyes that was filled with absolute thankfulness. 

I loved it. 

I also saw a mum, with her babies and their Grandad, about to take pictures to influence a well known Waffle House in Leeds. She was beautiful and dressed normal for a mama of two. Yet, literally 7 seconds before the picture was taken…right on cue, she whopped off her jumper at the speed of light, like she’d done it a million times before and took the photo to promote the family waffle joint, in a boob tube…for extra sexy ‘insta likes..’

I get that. I’ve been there. But I guess…everyone has their own version of ‘Perfection.’ We learn along the way.

Then there I was…stood in Superdrug, rummaging through lashes, to find the perfect pair. I found them pretty quickly, but a lady stopped me and said…

‘Do you wear these things? Do you know about these thing?’

I smiled and said ‘Yeah.’

She looked at me and smiled back..Then said.

‘I’m 70 years old, I have alopecia. I’ve lost my hair, but I’m going on a first date. My husband died 4 years ago…But I’ve just been sat at home, on my own for 4 years and I don’t want to do that anymore.’ 

Me: ‘Aww. You look great. So you want eyelashes?’

Lady: ‘Yes. But I don’t know how to do it pick? I want to look nice. I’m wearing a wig and it’s been hard to date because I have to explain that I’m bald, cos my hair don’t grow. I’ve only talk to him virtual. So this is the first time I’ll see him in real.’ 

She was Brazilian. I loved her openness. Yet more than anything ….she just wanted someone to chat to. It had nothing to do with eyelashes, or dates….She just wanted to feel a little less alone…

This was actually yesterday. I was stressed out yesterday. I was dashing about like a busy ‘all about me’ whirlwind. 

I looked at her, as we stood by the eyelash isle and I noticed that staff were walking by us and doing ‘are you okay’ faces at me. So I just stopped everything…I quit my rush about and boxed away my stress. It didn’t matter anymore. I put my bags down and began talking to her. 

In that moment it was all about her. Sonia was her name.

It meant so much to her. She beamed. I picked her a pair of lashes and got her some glue. 

I’ll never see her again, yet I was delighted to have given her my time because she’ll never forget it. It made me feel so

wonderful, to have shared a moment with her. I taught her friendship and eyelashes. Lol. She reminded me NOT to stress and of what life was really about. 

I walked out of that store, swinging my bags, with a skip in my step and a smile that radiated from inside me. I looked back….and she waved.

Tomorrow I Film ‘Perfect.’

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I’m really honoured to be part of this film. The script is phenomenal. The team is first class. I mean I couldn’t work with a more tremendous bunch of peeps. The actors are ofcourse 😉 just wonderful. But most of all…we’re all going to be telling you a story…with a message… that you’ll hopefully watch watch…and love.

I can’t wait. 

A film kinda life…

I don’t even really know where to start? So I guess I’ll just start right here….

I feel so grateful & so incredibly lucky to have recently been given so many opportunities to be able to work, create and ‘story tell,’ as my path meanders with others alike…and we do this thing called life…via the fine art of ‘film.’ 

To me… there’s nothing more magical & I just can’t believe…I really can’t believe…that I get to be a fully bloomed ‘grown up,’ that wakes up every morning & gets to do her dream job. I still wake up JUST as shocked, as I did the first time I booked an acting job…I love it so much. As I always say…I’m grateful. I take nothing for granted.

(It’s 3.57am and I’m laid in bed, in the dark typing this on my phone. It’s Jan 31st. Friday. I’m 39.) 

I remember being a tiny, little 6 year old…dancing around my Doncaster bedroom, acting out shows for my mum…(I even charged her 50p to watch them. Lol.) I’d wish that when I grew up, I’d get to be an actress. I’d tell everyone.

In fact, I didn’t wish…I just assumed that such would happen…and I guess…after a long road…a long life filled with those juicy ‘ups & downs,’ those moments of ‘give up,’ moments of celebration after achievement….travels across ponds…make ups, break ups, wrong decisions, right decisions…I got there. It was hard work. But I got there. 

It was certainly the juicy ‘ups & downs’ and that wee bit of gusto, that actually got me there. However, what I’m trying to say is…

I GOT THERE.

The journey is still great…It’s fulfilling. Yet like I always say…when people look in…they forget the ‘journey part’ and applaud the result. But that’s fine! A great result is SOMETHING to be celebrated. We celebrate everything we can in Wunna Land. So, I’m with ya!

‘It’s not how you start. It’s how you finish.’ 

 I got there because I wanted to get there, because every lesson that I stumbled across through life..so far, along the way (and I’m still stumbling,) I learnt from. I never cried over spilt Prosecco. (That’s a lie..I cried a bit. Haha.) I watched. I learnt. I moved. I made goals & danced to my own music appropriately. I got it SO wrong SO many times…But that’s okay…I was confident enough to just keep on going…positively. 

I never gave up. I always found my way…

I made friends. I lost friends. I fell in love, tons of times. I had my heart broken, loads. I got jobs. I lost jobs.  

But I never lost that glow. That warmth. That love. That excitement.

I’m talking about life. I’ve always loved it and of course lived it. 😉 . When you love it…it loves you back. Yet, I now NEVER do ANYTHING that doesn’t make me happy. I make the best out of most things. But I don’t make the best out of a bad bargain. EVER. This habit has actually filled my life with a whole lot more balance, love & happiness. That essential ‘glow’ that I keep going on about.

I keep things simple.

I owe my happiness to good family, good friends, a great education & my children…Everyone always thinks I’m a ‘wild one,’ (I had my ‘hey days.’) However my basic manner, my soul, is quite the opposite. I’m outspoken. I’m cheeky. But I’m calm. I’m polite. I’m probably one of the politest people you’ll ever meet…with a sassy old, twist of charm and drizzle of wit. 🙂 

I’m not sleeping well right now…because (like I always tell you,) alongside this truly wonderful time…I have a BIG thing going on...(behind the doors of Wunna Land.) But I’m positive because I know that in a few months…it will all finally be over…and my son can finally be happy, without any stress anymore. It’s a stress he doesn’t deserve. His bravery is remarkable for a 6yr old. We are standing by him every step of the way.

Ruby’s doing well. She’s working hard in school, SHE’S dancing around HER bedroom and acting out shows that she demands I watch…Haha. She’s a creative soul, an ambitious but kind little lady. She’s emotionally grown.

Last weekend, she actually just booked her first paid film. It’s a gritty crime/drama.

Director: ‘I’m not gonna lie, she’s EXACTLY what we’re looking for.’

(We signed contracts immediately.)

She starts filming on Feb 16th during half term. I’m really proud of her. She’s really excited.

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It was sweet because as soon as she got out of her audition and found out she got the job…Junior watched the time & called her.

Ju: ‘Did you get it Ru??’

Ruby: ‘I did! I did! I even get money. I can buy you that limo!’

All I could hear was Junior on speaker, running around the room, with absolute glee shouting…

‘She got it Grandma!!!! She got it!!!’

I always say that if I did anything RIGHT in life…lol…It would certainly be the fact that I raised the closest siblings ever. The amount of support & love they give each other is just so wonderful. I never taught them to do that…they just did.

(We popped around to my old work friend Mel’s on Friday…and I swear she was our good luck charm. The kids ran off to play with little Esme…her daughter. Then Mel & I caught up… There’s just something about Mel that soothes my soul. It’s probably because I can just be me. I can relax and be uncensored….AND well…she also has a story to tell.…I appreciate my moments with her. We’ve made each other laugh. We’ve seen each other cry before…She’s a good soul.)

Anyway…Back to BUSINESS!!

I’m really excited. This is what I have coming up! There’s a lot of work and it’s just so much fun.

Next week I begin shooting a film called ‘Perfect,’ by Jannah Zainol. I rehearse Tuesday to begin filming on Wednesday. I play ‘Paula.’ She’s ‘a popular daytime talk show host,’ and I CANNOT wait! It’s really great fun and with such an amazingly talented team! Lots of ‘Wunnerisms’ get to come into my character. So I can’t wait. I have butterflies in my tummy. The ones that flutter with excitement.

As soon as I wrap on that…I start filming ‘L’appel du Vide,’ by Georgia Frances. It is literally THE MOST beautiful film. A film that is quite simply layered with a Bitter/Sweet- Mind over Matter depth. I adore that I’ve been given the opportunity to be part of it. It’s just such a moving story…and I’m honoured to firstly work with such a creative Director AND be her female lead. (Eek!!) 

Straight after that…I shimmie onto the set of another film ‘Leave in Lurch,’ by Green Run Productions. It’s a really great, gritty crime/drama. I love the script. I cameo and play ‘Josh’s Girlfriend.’ This is the film that Ruby’s in. She’s actually got a great role. I have to be on set with her anyway…so I might as well cameo. 😉 It’s exciting! 

I’ll be telling you about them ALL, as I do them. I still need to tell you about ‘Extra,’ by Sean Martin, the AMAZING film I shot before Christmas. But it’s the screening soon, so shortly, I will be telling you all about my time on set.

I’ve also just booked the role of ‘Titania’ in ‘A Midsummer Nights Dream.’ It’s Shakespeare. It’s theatre. I’ll be on stage at the end of June & I can’t believe it. I’m really excited because it’s a long time since I stretched my ‘theatre’ wings. I’ve never done a Shakespeare play before…It’s challenging, but wonderful! I’m grateful to have been cast!

And along side all that…I’m GOING to ‘Monologue Slam’ it. I head to the auditions in April, for Monologue Slam UK. If I get through…I’ll get to be part of the action, and get to compete, against other actors, armed with nothing but a monologue. I’ll perform my piece live, in a 3 minute round, infront of four industry judges…who will crown a glorious ‘Monologue slamming’ Winner, in June.

There’s a lot going on.

Happy Friday!

Everything’s just so hectically beautiful x

I wrote this Saturday night…

So I finally got my manic weekend over…& we can…(well…when I say ‘We’ I mean Ruby, Junior & I) can finally kick back, relax and enjoy my Mums birthday!!! I literally have the most amazing mum & I treasure every single second I spend with her. 

The weekend has literally just been mayhem from Friday onwards….I self taped for the two feature films that I kinda need to get and then learnt all my scripts for upcoming films. I think I know them? I definitely know them! I’m really excited. (I’ve booked one of the ‘self tape’ films & I haven’t heard from the other one yet. But I NEED to get them both.) It’s weird because I’m running around like a headless chicken , yet remaining really calm and organised at the same time! AND I haven’t ONCE been distracted. 

I studied for my ‘now completed, passed & sorted’ YAFTA assessment. (Which I’m glad is out the way. I didn’t enjoy it at all. Haha. Who does? I haven’t done an exam type thing in ages. The build up on the day felt ‘assessment’ scary. It actually felt scarier than my actual auditions, even though everyone was lovely? There was definitely a ‘we have an assessment today’ vibe meandering around the room. It was shitty. I don’t even know why, I didn’t like it? I guess being tested is not my favourite thing in the world. I just like to do what I love & love what I do…and kinda without a test. 

But it’s done now. It’s all fun and games. I did it & did it well. I’m happy and I never want to do another assessment again, in my life….EVER. Haha. I’m just gonna be ill next time.

 It’s definitely something you have to ‘get on with,’ if you’ve subjected yourself to such a course. Yet, if anything…I’m just glad it’s ‘ticked off’ my weekend to do list. It was certainly one less thing to worry about! 

The GOOD thing was that I couldn’t put too much stress on it because there’s was a lot going on alongside it…(and even though I love a bit of ‘learning to act,’ I always prioritise work. If I didn’t pass my assessment, I figured I could re-sit. If I didn’t get a feature film, I’d lose work, money and well…I need four.) 

The learning is great and really important, but we’re all doing the Diploma to train to GET work anyway, right? I’m currently being super proactive and trying not to waste time, so I’m embracing my opportunities, whilst they’re here and alive. It might all dry up and then I’ll have to search for pots of gold at the end of rainbows, or go busking for 5 pence pieces.

Right now. I’m enjoying the ‘roll.’ 

There’s a whole ‘big picture.’ I’ve broken the ‘big picture’ down into goals. I know what I need to do, to get the result…So that’s what I’m doing! 

Goals! Priorities! Actions! 

(Zero Distractions)

I’ll admit life’s hectic right now! On Saturday whilst rehearsing my flipping monologue, (the one I was about to get ‘marked’ on,) I was confirming dates for ‘L’appel Du Vide,’ which starts filming in the middle of February…

Anyway, they needed to sort out all the crew and travel etc..etc… So confirming dates was really important. But it was like I was living lots of ‘moments’ in one.

At the same time I was making sure Ruby had organised & prepared everything she needed for the day…as she was being ‘delivered’ to me, just after 4pm, after my assessment, for her own audition. 

(Ruby’s on a roll, right now too! It’s crazy?We’re in a film together this year, where she plays my daughter. Obviously it was just easier for casting that way..plus I have a really great agent. But we both auditioned for ANOTHER film, both booked the roles…and for the first time she’ll film independently, as she won’t be playing my daughter. She’s got a whole other, OWN role… bless her. And it’s her first paid acting gig. Lol. So she’s really excited.)

But yeah…I had to confirm dates for that also….whilst learning the lines, for the scene,that we had to do for our assessment. 🙂 

(The first time I actually got my lines RIGHT for the assessment scene, was just before10am, after three FAILED attempts of line running… with Geordie Ben. My assessment was at 3.30pm. It was weird because the day before, I’d learnt two other entire monologues..easy peasy and filmed them for tape. But in a week…I couldn’t remember the simplest lines to my ‘Waterloo Road,’ assessment scene??????)

What else? 

The audition for the film ‘Perfect.’ I went in to audition on Thursday, in my yellow heels…for the role of ‘Paula.’ (She’s a ‘popular Day Time Talk Show host & has the biggest talk show in the nation.’ I was really excited. But I METHOD acted it all the way from my home, to the audition room. Haha. Like I was literally walking through the train station telling people, that my name was ‘Paula’ and that I was grabbing lunch, before filming my talk show. I even chose to EAT what ‘Paula’ would eat. Haha.) 

Anyway I had to improv a scene, read a scene and then answer ‘hot seat’ questions as ‘Paula’…

‘Hot seating’ is always scary…It’s only good if you truly understand your character and the story, right? Anyway…I liked it! I liked the team. I liked the vibe!!! I really wanted it!

They called me Friday night to welcome me to the production. (Yaaaaay!!!) I was so utterly grateful. 

So, yeah…that’s another lil’ tinker i’lI get to  our my heart into & I couldn’t be happier. I guess, because I really wanted to be part of their film & work with them. I mean their reputation, standard of filming, practice and professionalism is completely amazing. I feel very lucky! 

Plus a ‘good news’ phone call is always a ‘BUZZ.’ I happy danced!!! I got that sudden rush of ‘eeeek!!!’ That blush of body ‘ooh laa,’ that surges through your soul..That’s how you know you love something, that it means something to you and that you’re doing it for all the right reasons.

On the other side of the Wunna Land was Baby Junior. My little boy! 

Junior had his own ‘thing’ to brave face and conquer with my Mum, ‘Grandma’ on Saturday …As a family we’re going through such a big thing right now…and we can’t wait for it to be over. But without going into it…I couldn’t be prouder of Junior. He’s just grown so much and stood tall through everything he’s been subjected to. 

He’s fighting for his rights and I’m standing by him 100% of the way! (Plus, on a lighter note….he got the ‘Special Mention’ certificate AGAIN this week at school. So his little heart is filled with joy! I know everyone’s hearing a lot about Ruby right now, but Junior ALSO during half term is headed to London to audition for a little something…with his sister.) 

Straight after my assessment, (it was hilarious because I had been facing a wall, crying in a corner…and Katie, who had her assessment after me, was hand flicking on a sofa…) I had to grab my bag and DASH off back to the station to retrieve Ruby. 

It was literally…’Thank you so much…See ya!’ Then dash….dash…..dash! 

Ruby (little ‘Ruby Wattis Wunna’) had her audition for the remake of ‘Matilda.’ The big old feature film. Her audition was at 6.15pm. So my mum brought both Ru & Ju over to meet me…and after a tiny bit of chill time…to gather in and focus…we Uber’d over. 

We were early so we stopped off at Aagrah, on St.Peter’s Square, by the BBC building for mocktails…because she decided to get terrified. Haha. 

She’d been quite confident & extremely excited, until that point. We’d practiced. We’d gone through it all. She knew she had been asked to audition, yet it all happened so quickly….She got scouted & submitted Thursday, and an email came Friday lunch time, asking if Ruby could meet Casting.. the NEXT DAY (Saturday) because they were in Leeds. 

So technically Ruby only found out at 3.30pm Friday, at school pick up. She only had that evening to prepare a monologue and a song. Lol… But she smashed it! Excerpt learnt. Song learnt! 

It was like she blinked and she went from school, to now being surrounded by an ‘all singing and all dancing’ crowd of dresses and bows, with dreams, ambition and mums…at a film audition!!! Lol. 

Ruby showed up in a jumper…jeans…and with me. We kept it simple. 🙂

Ru: ‘They’re all so sassy mum and better than me? Why are they all reading their monologues so strangely?’

Me: ‘They’re Theatre. You know where everything’s all BIG smiles and jazz hands. Look. Enjoy it! You don’t need a frilly dress and a dance routine. It’s a feature film. When it’s your turn…stand…wait…and when you’re READY…read. Keep it real, simple and emotional. Tell your story..Don’t feel intimidated!’

..And just like that, her group was lovingly summoned into an elevator..

Casting: ‘Ah! There you are Ruby!’

… and as the elevator door closed, that was it! She was off to audition….