Yesterday afternoon was great. There was a moment where in which I peeked over an orange desk divider, saw someone who i adore ‘drowning’ in life and in a moment of sarcastic laughter, I smiled, looked to my left, noticed that ‘my left’ had also witnessed the sorry sight of what i’ll call ‘Double B…Help Me,’ (hahaha)….so after salads (because a girls got to eat before she attempts to save the world,) we hovered around the girly, who never dare ask for help, but looked like she made need a ‘step in’ and armed with Post It’s, smiles, RIGHTS, hands ready to file, determination, harsh voices and heels…we scurried and rushed MADLY around our little ‘Double B’ and turned ‘darkness’ to light, put ORDER where there was chaos…..and we did it with sass and smiles.
And in that moment ‘Double B’ looked up at us both, with a sigh and a gentle warmth, eyes that smiles internally, relief that vaped out her system, pushed her swizzle chair back and let us get on with it.
It wasn’t the ‘order’ that had made her smile, it was the simple fact that without her asking, as she has her pride, don’t we all, two chicks, from the ‘other side of the orange divider’ had spotted that she might need a lifeline and instead of letting her drown and struggle…they…well WE, hair tossed, grew ten feet tall and bothered to not only care, but actually strut ahead and help.
All you heard in that moment was this:
‘What’s this for?’
‘Give me that!!’
‘I’ll do that.’
‘Sort that out! That’s not right.’
‘What is THIS??’
‘Right…throw that away. You’re sorted.’
That’s what mattered and it’s moments like that, that bring people closer together, right? Without having to say anything, because we’re all feisty chicks, our ‘eye talk’ said it all. *Grins. Nods. You’re not on your own. Winks.*
Don’t get me wrong, we weren’t mushy or kind or lame about it. Hahaha. We’re Yorkshire. We’re ‘take it on the chin’ chicks. As well..i’m certainly not mushy by nature, ESPECIALLY when i help people. I don’t offer sympathy, i tend to just share strength, or tough love. Lol. However, i know in my life that there have been hundreds of times, where in which life has tumbled a giant bucket of stress all over my world and i’ve sat with a smile, hoping TO GOD (haha) that some human somewhere would just throw me a Goddamn lifeline or a GIN. Lol. And it’s because of that, that i’ll never let anyone drown.
Afterward we just went back to the other side of the ‘orange divider’ like nothing had happened. It was only later when ‘Double B’ mentioned it to…what should i name her? ‘The Mighty’ yeah…that’ll do. In Double B’s moment of ‘this has happened and i feel much better for it’….The Mighty smiled, looked over the orange divider and quietly mimed the words ‘THANK YOU.’ That put the full stop on the end of the madness. life was flipped back to ‘okay’ again.
Then like the world did a U turn…there I was all coat on, handbag, ready to begin ‘weekend’…and my world hit *pause* as the same thing happened again…BUT TO ME! Hahaha.
The accidental closest people to you, other than your family, partner…your cat, your dog, your wine bottle 🙂 are the ones that you see every single day, of almost every day of the year, all day, every minute…and well you are much closer than you realize to these folks as they see you daily and know you better than anybody!!
So, there i was..all normal and all ready to walk out the door…and this sentence happened…
‘I’ve got a view on your blog,’ (and a sort of face followed that statement, which sort of read… ‘i need to tell you because you’re being an absolute tit.’ Hahaha.And i love that because at times, you need those people to ‘step in’ and throw you a ‘reality check.’ It’s only your ‘closest’ that will do that to you, for you…and mainly because they think ‘you’re better than being a tit.’ Lol I’m the exact same way. I am the friend that will bluntly tell you what i think and the truth. 🙂 Yet not negatively…just to remind you how great you really are. It’s positive…honest! Lol
Anyway, long story short…this is what happened…
‘I’ll be on my lunch and i’ll just go on your blog for a read, like you do, for something to do…and you’re a good writer, but i get so frustrated and literally want to start screaming at your blog because if i didn’t know you personally and just read your blog, i’d think you were some blond, dizzy, airhead, that’s all needy, attention seekery and lost… AND IT’S SO F****** ANNOYING because in REAL LIFE, and i know because i see you EVERY DAY, all day, you’re absolutely NOTHING LIKE THAT, you’re SENSIBLE and…’ (then she looks at Double B and says) ‘Am i being harsh??’ HAHAHA.
Double B is shyer than we are, so just starts to put her down and LAUGH, whilst saying ‘I thought that tooo…I mean you’re REALLY INDEPENDANT and REALLY different to your blog.’
(Note: I’m not think any of this is harsh, as i’m a direct girl and i love it, when people speak their mind…i was giggling but absorbing.)
‘I mean, you’re attractive and i don’t know if it’s a persona, or if you really feel like that sometimes, or if you’ve just had a bunch on wine before you start blogging that makes sound like that…but you need not to! Lol. It’s so frustrating and obviously you’re not going to find it easy to date, as these guys, who DON’T ACTUALLY KNOW YOU, are going onto this blog, whether they say they are or not and seeing you in a light that you’re really not. I mean, you’re so down to earth and together…and…JUST…well…people don’t need to know EVERYTHING. Call a chick friend or something and leave those bits out of the blog.’
And i smiled because they were right.
We even stood outside afterward for 20 mins talking about life, the blog, all sorts.
‘I know it must be harder for you anyway to date, but you’re not selling yourself right because you’re not that weird high maintenance, dumb chick.’
We laughed, but i listened….and then we decided Friday nights should be about an after work drink in the future.
Then Double B and I walked onward to our cars…
Unfortunately for me, i told a bunch of teenage boys off the other day, so now whenever i walk out of work, they wait for me on a bench to ridicule me and shout things at my body parts. Lol. Idiots. 🙂 Double B, just smirked when she saw the teenagers, said that i was now ‘on my own’ and that she ‘couldn’t walk with me’ lol…and left me to it. HAHAHA.
But i loved because during that drive home, i felt EMPOWERED! I WAS BACK. It put everything back into perspective.
Today i was meant to be in London but i didn’t end up going, but it was great because i spent the entire day with The Wunna’s, the babies and with laughter.
To finish on a humourous note, i was on my lunch yesterday and outside some underwear store opposite Marks & Sparks in Pontefract, this guy spots me and comes to chat…
‘Hey. I think i know you?’
‘Hi. You on your lunch?’
‘No, i’ve been on a job interview. I work at Haribo. You met me once with friends….’
(I actually completely remembered, but said nothing.)
Then the weirdest thing happened. Out of nowhere, whilst he was chatting to me, he says,
‘You know Big Gay Wayne, who manages Biggies?’
‘Yeah.’ (I have no clue who that is?? Lol But just went with it.)
‘Well i apparently, i was sooooooooo drunk at the weekend, sooo drunk that i can’t remember anything and i kissed him!’
‘Hahaha. What? Are you even gay?’
‘No!!!! Apparently, he went to kiss me and i was so pissed, i went for it? I just needed to tel someone to get it off m chest, i feel sooo much better now. HAHAHA.’
‘You needed to tell someone, so you chose ME, the TOWN BLOGGER!!!’
‘SHIT!!! INFACT NO…IT DOESNT MATTER…You don’t even know my name.’
‘ I do…it’s…’ (and i won’t put it on here….lol…but i knew his name.)
He just laughed, said he’s glad to have gotten it off his chest…and i left this path with a… ‘i best get back to work.’
SEE! I’m this weird being that people like to tell things to, as i’m oddly approachable, during times of need. HAHAHA
Happy Weekend. Hope you’re having a good one.